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Tutorials, tutorials....

sigh... dunno if i can ever catch up for my tutorials... sigh...... n yet i also hav to attend so many outside classes. oh yea, ytd was such an exhausting day. went thru body lang auditions. din screw it up at least... hope that we had left a gd impression for the judges although they seem so 'leng'.... but nonetheless, we were still excited n happy after the auditions!! taking all sorts of funny n lame photos together..... cant imagine after dance auditions i still hav to rush back home n rush for my jap class again. only got to take a super short nap of 10min.... argh..... still rmb i was on the mrt studying jap n i almost fainted... super tired, n yet no seats for me....... went to my jap class, n there was really a class test!! luckily it was still manageable, cos i din even prepare for it. copied the examples thru out the whole paper.

hm... today i sang n sang, trying to hit high notes till i teared... sniff, sniff, so hard to hit high notes.... n my teacher tot i was crying.... dunno y though, mayb it was becos of the song, or mayb just becos i was putting too much stress on myself. but now i finally got the feeling of singing high notes without squeezing my throat. at least my throat does not hurt now..... right, i shall prac everyday!!!!
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I feel good!!!!

i guess i feel better now.... now as much being affected by the matter... mayb not fully recovered, but at least, im not as depressed... mayb sometimes by keeping urself occupied with work does help u to temporary forget ur troubles... but most important of all, i had realised that friendship is really more important as well as worth cherished than anything else. really touched at the concern n encouragement given by my fellow friends... friends from my sec sch, as well as from the frens in HC...a big thank you to all those out there who had showed me concern during the times when i was feeling down...i would not hav pulled thru the hard times if u all were not there for me.... thank you!!!

anyways, happy today!! (though at the same time, im exhausted!! tired!!! whole body aching!!!!) but we finally finish our dance n quite although not completely ready for auditions tmr.. but after weeks of hard work n effort, i really really wish that we can get thru the auditions... even spent nights of taking cab home n also climbing the sch gate haha...... we better get thru!!!!!! n i better not screw it up tmr!!!!! oh man, very nervous n scared now!!!
whether we get thru or not, i still think these wks when we spent afternoons n afternoons choreographing n practising, the most important thing is still the bonds we hav made as well as the fun n laughter we had experienced. i had truly enjoyed myself for these past wks though im really dying of fatigue now.... argh.....

think i getting sore throat soon....... :( argh.... my throat feels wierd, feels bad...
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Danceworks night

today went to watch danceworks!!! super excited!!!!!! i had been waiting for this day!!! Previously i had promise myself sth, but in just one day's time, i broke my own promise. Excitement took full control of me n i could not control myself!!! saw niang on stage n i was super excited!!! I screamed n cheered madly, didnt care at all... i hav always love to watch him dance, yay!!! but today, he didnt seem like his usual self. normally he always seem so confident n cheerful during performance, but today, he didnt smile much, n kept looking down. mayb he was stressed or sth...sigh... the gals improved though, all smiled n seemed quite energetic... kangeroo made a mistake too at the end, so sad..... anyways, i was still super high to be able to see them dance, n stupid me, mayb i was just too excited or high or sth that i waved to niang!! oh no, bet he saw me n i ma lued myself totally!!!! right, i shall keep it down from today onwards.... but tonight, let me be crazy for once haha!!!!
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Sunshine after the rain

There will always be sunshine after the rain. After a pour, there wont be anymore rain. a rainbow may appear, n the sun will be out. i hav made my decision. i hav sort out my thoughts. i noe what to do.

~Zhong Jian~

~Leng~

XXGreenXX

::Bye Bye::

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Depressing Day

8:41 PM

now i believe in how the weather can affect one's emotions. the sky turned grey, together with dark clouds, it marked the beginning of a depressing day. hav no mood at all... felt wierd... felt empty inside....

Dao me.... mayb that was my retribution for daoing ppl in the first place...

Raise voice at me.... that was the first time u do this to me...

~tot i was being kind, heard u mourning so that's y feel sorry for u, n yet u treat me this way~

mayb the msg was right, if one sigh about one's problems, the problem would just double... never expected such double shock... enough of depression for one day.. i cant take it anymore

yes, i can see the history repeating itself. im scared right from the beginning, scared that it will turn out this way. n it really did. my fears were right. but she is right, i would rather hav the troubles on myself then to hav it on others.

the rain got heavier as my heart sank even deeper... nothing really helped, not even the m & m's chocolate.

remember the crying game i played with germaine. at times when u purposely want to cry, the tears just wont come. but when u dun want to, it just comes uncontrollably...

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Not to cry

8:28 PM

5 ways to stop yourself from crying:

1. whenever u feel like crying, do handstands, in this way, the tears will not flow out ~~~ Hua ze lei

2. Go watch HCI waterpolo match n shout or cheer with all ur might, let it all out

3. Listen to Fish Leong's song: Zhong Jian ~~~ any strong emotions will be neutralized

4. Sing out loud: sing all the high notes n let it all out.

5. Eat lots of chocolate ~~~ chocolate makes ppl feel happy

if none works, just cry then. after drying your tears, u wont feel like crying anymore

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Am i really that sad??

Thursday, April 14, 2005

9:58 PM

Remember wat xie zhi (taizi) said b4: if it is fated to be yours, it would be yours. If it is not yours, no matter how hard u try to get hold of it, no matter how firm u grab hold of it, it WILL eventually slip away.... now i began to understand this logic, or belief.... sometimes, u cannot choose to insist on things that u want. it is not true to say that if u keep on believing, ur dreams will come true.. i realise this is totally, extremely, absolutely wrong!!! At least to me.....
Slowly, im beginning to sort things out.... learning to let go... learning to control.... learning to look on the bright side of things... stop dreaming......... stop it please.........
i shall n i will learn to forget n give up.....
today did a crazy thing.... sigh... scary but exciting, with the risk of getting into trouble as well as detention. but all these seem trivial n not as important to me now.. why???

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Change of ranking

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

10:30 PM

hmm... think there shuld be some changes made to my ranking.... think niang shuld not be ranked fourth... well, guess this shuld be new ranking:
1. Niang
2. Kangeroo
3. Green Guy
4. GA
Right..... super tiring!!!! well but at least our performance piece is much better now... n im looking forward to the shopping trip for costumes n my adidas cap tis sun!!! yay!!!! i want to learn our competition dance piece also, looks quite cool!!!!! but quite got tiring moves..... cant imagine i had chatted with ms chua from sch all the way to boon lay.... but she very friendly lah, not like a teacher at all.... n today, the despo person kept giving me wierd messages again, sigh..... cant get rid of him at all..... now im ignoring him completely... never seen a guy so despo n bian tai lah.....
hmm.... still feeling pretty hyper now!!!!!!!! haha!!!!!! sorry if i m irritating but niang really very funny....... haha..... well, guess i shuld settle down n go do my revision...

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My Heart is racing

Friday, April 01, 2005

11:10 PM

hav been daoing him the whole day today since morning. dao him n looked away... but eventually, he said hi to me, haha, finally, so hav to wave back. but it came as quite a shock to me cos i din even had time to react n think of wat to do, my heart beat so fast that i can hardly breathe!! omg..... thus, hav been feeling happy for the rest of the day but right now, really pissed off by my brother!! din help me at all, he is the lousiest guy in the whole world!! not a gentleman at all!!! i cant sign in!!! but he just dun bother!!!!! spoil my mood!! dampen my spirits!!!arh!!!!!!!!!!

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