loser me
Thursday, June 16, 2005
11:51 PM
went back to sch again for dance prac.... sigh.... tired!!!!!!! my legs r breaking!!!!! argh.....
went for singing class after tt.... mm.... bad once again... after weeks n weeks of prac, i still can sing correctly.... singing may seem an easy task for others but not for me i guess..... loser me..... actually cried over this kind of thing..... but i just cant helped it.... was already controlling myself a lot le when i was there and on the bus......teacher was right about me exploding right inside me.... reached home n i really cant stand it and i let it all out..... felt much better after that... but just not in the mood... mm... dun even feel like eating rice for dinner... worst still, im really stuck at physics.... very very slow progress... tmr hav to start to pia again...
but nonetheless, im still grateful to my teacher.... every wk also tried all sorts of ways to help me overcome my fears, n yet im still so lousy.... loser me... hmmm.... quite touched abt his words b4 we left... :thx for having faith in me n thx for believing in me that i can do it.... no matter how hard it may seem, or how long i may take, i wont giv up trying n striving, as long as u dun giv up hopes on me....
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President of MAD
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
2:54 PM
yayz, was so happy ytd when i got the news!!!!! super shocked as well.... wow, i would nv have expected this!!!!!! not even in my dreams.... i will hav to work hard from now onwards....sigh... the seniors hav not really step down n yet i hav tons n tons of work to do le..... oh man, feel quite lost at the moment but i guess i will take things slowly n steadily.... i will figure things out somehow.... hmm..... mum like not very happy for me when she heard the news leh... sigh... i was so happy n hope that my parents will be proud of me too.. hah.. but just the opposite, they dun even feel anything for my gd news. anyway, there is still a long long journey ahead of me n i must persevere on.... i will hav to fulfil my duties like wat i had i promised.
n thx to all of my frens who had encouraged me on for the interview, u all gave me a lot of support n u all believed in me.. thx so much, esp to my seniors, thx for having faith in me n entrusting the responsibilities to me. i will not let u all down. i will let MAD fa yang guang da......
hmm..... rite... im slacking now again.... hmm.. taking a break.... my whole body aching like hell.....quite hard to keep my body straight up for long.... ouch..... guess i need a massage chair now... :p okz, after resting, shall get back to work now...
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random
Sunday, June 12, 2005
10:32 PM
hmm... ytd watched 2 movies in one day.. wow...watched premonition which was recommended by sara.. hmm... think compared to the previous korean horror movie, tis one is not as scary as tt one... but both equally mysterious(meaning dunno wat is going on)... ahh.... but tis movie still had one super scary moment which i still rmb till now n almost couldnt slp last nite becos of tt scene..hmm... dunno if i got hearing prob but i really heard things in the cinema tt seemed too real for it to come from the movie.... eeeee.........
at nite, so happy!!!!!!!! cos got my sassy girlfriend again. n i watched it for umpteen times but still not sick of it..wat a funny, humorous n yet romamtic n sad movie..... really love the song.. hmm... i shall declare tt i hav found my fav song.... i believe....i believe too.... i believe ppl from the future can visit our world, n they might be just among us... i believe i can meet one too....one day....
hmm..... tmr will be exco interview.... sigh....... im scared!!!! my very first interview... i dunno wat to do..... wat shuld i do???? wat can i do???? wat i cant do???? wat i shuld not do????? wat will happen tmr??? wat will they ask me tmr?????wat.........................??????????????????ahhhhh.... n tmr kay's dance..... im scared too........ i will be scolded again....... i will be....argh........tis is scarier than watching horror movie.........
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nightmare
Friday, June 10, 2005
5:47 PM
woa... terrible..... had a terrible nightmare ytd nite... me, a criminal??? oh man, got chased ard the whole building by the cops n ghosts!!!!!???!! @#$@%$# hiding n running, sliding n climbing here n there....tiring.. scary... n i woke up, sweating all over!!!!!!! argh.... hardly slept n rest at all..... kept running the whole nite......
hmph.... sianz..... cooped up at home all day again..... but tried to finish some chem le.. phew... hope i still can catch up with my timetable.... *cross fingers*
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love::luv::
4:38 PM
<3
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Open your eyes to love
4:33 PM
You've been searching the world to find true love
Looking in all the wrong places
When all the times you have been blind to know
Its plain as the nose on your faces.
its here, its now
open your eyes to see it
Right here,
Right now
Open your eyes to love
You've been down on your-self thinking somethings are wrong
You have wondered why love has never found you
You know its been here all along
If only you look around you
Its here, Its now
Open your eyes and see it
Right here, Right now
Open your eyes to love
Love has been right by your side
So close that you couldnt see
If love could speak, it would shout to the sky
I've always been here
I always will be here
Im here, Im now.
Open your eyes and see
Right here, Right now
Open your eyes to love
Open your eyes to love
Open your heart to love
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inspirations::::::
Thursday, June 09, 2005
9:22 PM
yess!!!!!!!!! i must inspire myself again!!!!!!!!!im slacking again these few days..... sigh... i must pia!!!!!! reaching sci tuts le... yes.. got some progress le.. at least...ok... tmr onwards i will pia n pia!!!!!!! finish up the sciences!!!!!!!!!!!!! i must!!!!!! PIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!cannot slack anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! control!!!!!!!!! CONTROL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Argh!!!!!!!!
i can do it!!!! i can survive thru this!!!!!!!!!!!! i will pass my block test!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can do it!!!!!!!!!!!!
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contented
9:08 PM
amazing...... tis is really what dreams are made of... still rmb when i was young, i really wish n day dream all day that one day i could dance n perform on stage, or stand on stage n sing... hmm.... n now.. i cant believe it... my dreams r slowly coming true... firstly...my dream of dancing n performing on stage actually came true le!! i really cant believe me, one who has no dance bg, could actually perform on stage.. regarding singing... im working towards my dream rite now... really hav to thank my mum for the support n finance help to train me in my singing....dunno y but my teacher really had high hopes on me n chosen me as his student.. hmm... but i guess i will disappoint him one day.... im not born a singer... so lousy n all....niang sang super duper well today.. she is like WOW!!!! im impressed!!!! teacher was impressed too!!! niang is really one born performer!! can sing, can dance, etc.. so many talents... wow.. when can i ever sing like niang???when i can i ever reach her pitch?? hmph... doubt there wont be a day...i must work hard!!!!!! i must train!!!!!! i, will still be me.. me... my own style... sigh....
but anyways... dreams really do come true.... i will.. continue to strive towards my goals n dreams!!!!
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random
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
11:53 PM
ytd just had our class outing.. sigh.. -.- class outing?? with onli 9 ppl?? haha anyway.. still had fun though.. cant believe that i had skipped my breakfast for the first time!!!!! i broke my principle of eating breakfast everyday!!!!! rite... skipped my breakfast to rush out of the hse but end up reaching there half n hour earlier... -.-
we had lunch together.. haha.. hav not eaten macs for long long time le.. ate happy meal!! haha!! n got a super cool n fun stamp!!!!! so happy!!! hmm.. but think im going to get the mac music cd too... haha... shall eat macs another day.. then we went for bowling..after that went for a movie.. haha.. madagascar.. lame n funny n no point(just like wat desmond said) but still had a great time laughing in the cinema.. love the part with the wilson volleyball n fire starting part.. reminds me of the movie "castaway".. so funny...later went to play arcade n it turns out to be a family outing again with niang, nanny, gor, me..ahh.. my basketball throwing skills deproved so much!!!!!! so lousy.... later went for dinner n shopped ard northpoint with gor cos niang n nanny abandoned me cos im slow at eating!!!!!!! :'( sniff..
today got a new tv table... erm... dad loved it a lot.. but i think it is not as nice.... looks a bit cheapo though..
hmm.. shuld i go for the chalet???? can i manage my studies?? or shuld i go for a break??? ahhhhh!!!!! so stressed up by studies now.... im worried leh... shuld i go?????
sigh.. got cold sore.. sad.. hate it.. so painful la... n the medicine is so gross!!!! yucks... i better not taste anymore...
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what dreams are made of 2
10:42 PM
"What Dreams Are Made Of"Have you ever seen such a beautiful night?I could almost kiss the stars for shining so brightWhen i see you smiling, I go oh oh ohi would never want to miss thiscuz in my heart i know what this isThis is what dreams are made ofThis is what dreams are made of I've got somewhere i belong I've got somebody to love This is what dreams are made ofHave you ever wondered what life is about?You could search the world and never figure it outyou don't have to sail the oceans happiness is no mystery it's here now it's you and meYesterday my life was duller Now everything's technicolorThis is what dreams This is what dreams are made ofThis is what dreams are made of I've got somewhere i belong I've got somebody to love This is what dreams are made of
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mayb im tired
Monday, June 06, 2005
4:54 PM
mayb im tired..... mayb im sick....i dun wanna think... i dun wanna think anymore.... even if it sets me thinking...i dun wanna feel....
I don't want another pretty faceI don't want just anyone to holdI don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soulYou're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna holdI wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soulI know that you are something special To you I'd be always faithfulI want to be what you always needed Then I hope you'll see the heart in me Your beautiful soul, yeahYou might need time to think it overBut im just fine moving forwardI'll ease your mind If you give me the chanceI will never make you cry c`mon lets tryAm I crazy for wanting youBaby do you think you could want me too I don't wanna waste your timeDo you see things the way I do I just wanna know if you feel it tooThere is nothing left to hideI don't want another pretty faceI don't want just anyone to holdI don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soulYou're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna holdI wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul
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shopping trip
Sunday, June 05, 2005
11:53 PM
happy today... :) went out shopping with mommie today!! bet she spent really really a lot.. bought two pairs of shoes. as for me, she got me 2 blouses, new earrings, a pair of damn ex pants n bracelet... wow!! nv shopped till so shuang nowadays. but i guess i will not shop again for quite some time.... must save up a bit.. :p
rite.. yayz... quite happy tt we got to eat dessert today as a family(but excluding boy boy... he sad ah... always got left out) hav nv been spending time with my family... sigh...went to eat hong kong traditional dessert... not very nice though... i still miss the crystal jade's mango dessert!!!! i must go back there n eat it again..
hmm... so i dun look pale for today's ktv class ah... haha.. for the first time... n niang: U R REALI GOING TO GET ME KILLED TIS TIME!!!!!!!!!!
went home after ktv, sianz..... just dun feel like doing anything. just lie there.... my mum even think that i got some problems la...... -.-
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frens forever??
Saturday, June 04, 2005
11:56 PM
*sniff.....* i tried to do my part liao.... it seemed wierd.. y cant we tok like wat we used to... sigh.. does distance really make a diff??? sniff.... i dun wish to lose my best fren leh...... :(
i really really wish us to stay close like in the past..... but it seemed like i dun hav much to tok to her....how...
n my pri sch frens too... sigh... we all went our separate ways le...... :(
wat can i do????
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Suteki da ne
1:34 PM
:::::Suteki da ne:::::My heart was swimming in words gathered by the wind.My voive boundedinto a cloud-carried tomorrow.My heart trembledin the moon-swayed mirror.Soft tears,spilled with a stream of stars.Words halted by wind area gentle illusion.A tomorrow torn by clouds isthe voice of a distant place.My heart that had beenin a moon-blurred mirror that flowed,Those stars that trembled and spilledcannot hide my tears.My dream of your face,that i softly touch,melts in the morning.
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PIA
12:01 AM
yess!!!!!!!!!! tmr must start to pia for my tutorials!!!!!!! mUsT MuSt MUST mUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i must pia!!!!!!!!! must control!!!!!!!!!!!! must not fall asleep!!!!!!!! must not watch tv!!!!!!!!!!!! must not slack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n i must not be lazy to go for my jap class!!!!!!!!yes!!! i will work hard!!!!!!!
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thinking of the past
Friday, June 03, 2005
10:31 PM
was flipping thru my photo album n looking at all the photos... hmm.... really brings back memories.... haha.. really miss all my old frens leh... must really ask them out one day during the hols.. really miss my frens leh...
n realise one more thing... my hairstyle had really changed many times throughout these few yrs.. haha...yes, n now im thinking of my next hairstyle... how should it be??? must try sth different again haha...
rite now... hmm.... thinking.. shuld i really become a fac dance ic?? i dunno if i can teach ppl dance leh... but think it will be quite fun to lead the ppl in the dance... hmm.... die liao... how am i going to survive thru the interview n audition!!!!!!!!! 2 interviews coming up... die... wat m i going to do???????
it is onli the first wk of hols n the tidbits at home are already depleting soon!!!! oh man..... hav to stock up new supplies..
and it is a friday nite!!! y is everyone asleep already????? hmm... mayb i shuld learn from them n try to slp earlier...
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not me not i
12:06 AM
"Not Me, Not I"
You mixed me up for someone
Who'd fall apart without you
Yeah you broke my heart for the first time
But I'll get over that too
It's hard to find the reasons
Who can see the rhyme?
I guess that we where seasons out of time I guess you didn't know me
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, no not me, not I
The story goes on without you
And there's got to be another ending
But yeah you broke my heart it won't be the last time
But I'll get over them too
As a new door opens we close the ones behind
And if you search your soul I know you'll find
You never really knew me
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, not I, not I
All you said to me
All you promised me
All the mystery never did believe
No I never cry no I never not me not I
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not I, I won't cry
No not me, not I, not I, Not I
No not me, not I
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family outing
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
4:53 PM
yayz, finally had our family outing ytd, but too bad ah pa cant be with us.... our lunch was just so filling!! yay!! got to eat xiao long bao again, yummy!!! n i just love the mango dessert!! chao zan! and finally got to shop for clothes since stagnant for dunno how long.. got some prob of not knowing wat to buy at first haha, too long nv shop liao, getting rusty. haha, but still not bad, i still finished shopping within my usual speed n time limit. gor seemed sian diao, haha...oops... the ktv session was fun though... sang those ao piao songs that we usually dun sing. ahhh.... my voice was super weak ytd....
the dance we learnt today is nice... but the catch is, it is so DIFFICULT n TIRING!!!!!!!! oh man.... was like panting like mad le.... n it seemed like im the slowest learner among all.. :( think kay also heck care me liao... so lousy n slow..... hmm... continued with shopping today n spent all my money liao.. no more money to eat lunch, luckily niang was there to save me..
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what dreams are made of
4:40 PM
---Have you ever seen such a beautiful night I could almost kiss the stars for shining so brightWhen i see you smile and i go oh oh ohI would never want to miss thisIn my heart, I know what this isThis is what dreams are made ofThis is what dreams are made ofI've got Somewhere i belong I've gotSomebody to loveThis what dreams are made of ---
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