Amazed!
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
6:09 AM
oh man! gotta to noe abt some interesting big big news!! wow! oh man! im darn amazed! shocked! oh my.. but still.. i feel happy for the person.. :D hehehehehehehhehhahhahahaha.. wish the person luck! must rmb to follow ur heart k!! be brave! to make the first step!! must listen to ur heart! dun make urself regret! jia you!
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touching moments amidst depression
5:52 AM
today, quite a depressing day.. made a casual comment n got attituded... sigh.. anyway, used to it le... fac dance.. hmm.. not one single person turned up to learn the dance. onli got my two juniors to come n gave me moral support... i got really depressed and demoralised.. couldn't control myself no more.. but still, im really grateful to my juniors who turned up for fac dance.. they learned the dance at a price of having to skip chem lessons.. im really quite touched.. this is enough for me to forget my depression and to cheer myself up.. Thanks so much juniors!! owe u all this!! without u all today, the fac dance session would hav been a total failure. and thx to all those ppl who had shown me concern and support today: thx to those who gav me a pat on the shoulder, even tho it was jus a pat, it is enough to push me on. thx xun, for showing up and cheering us on and helping us.. hope gareth can relax abit and dun get so stressed up.. u dun owe us this.. we ought to do it right for u.
although today can be depressing day, i still find myself lucky to be able to experience such concern and heart-warming events..
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past memories
Thursday, January 12, 2006
4:57 AM
wow.. looking back.. great memories.. looked thru the photos n they really bring back memories.. miss the times when our class is still one class... the times we had stj, jts with our seniors.. the outings we had... sigh.. now, it is no longer the way it used to be.... mayb we had known too much stuff tt we shouldnt know.. sigh.. now.. wat can we do? nth.. miss the times during dance, esp cucumbers!!! miss u guys! the cucumberians!!!! cucumbers rocks man!! even tho we were struggling at tt time, but i still love the times when we had to stay till 9 sth in sch to prac...
well, now i can onli look thru the pics, n think abt the memories...
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respect
Thursday, January 05, 2006
6:56 AM
getting more n more stressed up... feelings seems to bottle up in my heart n i really need to release it somewhere... complicated feeling.. wonder who i can talk to who will understand my problems. at least should show me some respect.. at least should be less hostile to me.. since im given the responsibility n duty, u should giv me the respect i deserve... its so hard to be the middle person. i cant be tear apart btw teacher n students u noe... i got to answer to both... its not easy at all.. should think for others.. not onli for urself.. stop being so selfish n self-centered... our duty is to bring everyone together... not to tear all of us apart... we hav enough of ppl full of their own opinions. n i had bear enough of ur "wonderful" opinions.. i hav to be strong n confident dealing with u all.. n I WILL.. i wont let u put me down no matter how good u think u r..
finally vented my anger... but i still feel inferior... i dunno who to trust.. i dunno who still believes in me.. in fact.. i need assurance.. i need some encouragement to keep me going.. i swear i hav been trying my best.. but i dunno how ppl view me.. hav i really done my job? m i cut out for my duty? m i of any help or use? i jus wanna meet ppl expectations.. i dun wanna fail anyone.. i noe i dun hav the exp, i dun hav the capabilities.. but since i hav been given the job so unexpectedly, i really cant fail anyone.. even tho i noe there r ppl out there who r much better than me in this area...
i jus wish i can pull thru this..
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