Dreams do come true.....

Sherlock holmes+wii+wow

2010-05-06T07:06:00.000-07:00

today watched sherlock holmes (DVD) and i find it a great movie! I think im really a fan of Robert Downey Jr already. The movie was quite humorous, but i guess the plot isnt that fascinating.. the usual sherlock holmes cases i guess.. but im looking forward to the sequel IF there is going to be any.

Looked through what are the new wii games to get.. hmm.... sigh. not much RPG games for me to play on wii cos the graphics really suck.... :( still miss the ps RPG games which i played before, like Grandia, Mana Tree etc. but today i get to know that monster hunter tri is available on Wii! yay, will be able to play that soon.

here comes another qn which i have been asking myself. SHould i play wow again? hmph... im kind of stuck at a phase whereby i had missed out on the raids. especially the ulduar and icecrown ones. but it really help me pass time.. though it kinda waste money too..

Shall end today's post with some tips on dating (*winks). The points below are important in keeping a long-term relationship :)

Show endearment with class. A certain look. A scratch on the back. A soft kiss. Nothing "clingy" or inappropriate.

Appreciate a man's strengths. And tell him so, even if he's already prideful. Then support him when he is at his best, and avoid nagging or berating him when he is at his worst.

Glow. If the warmth of your heart is written all over your face, and your feelings for your guy show in the sparkle in your eyes, you will melt him. This is what removes all doubt - it's the important "silver bullet".

Convey unconditional love. A strong relationship should be based upon more than convenience. Pushing past difficult times while remaining together requires a deep commitment and appreciation for one another. Unconditional love is developed over time. It is a choice we make, not necessarily a feeling we experience.

"Winning the Man NOT the Argument". In any relationship, disagreements will occur. However the key to resolving issues is not only to talk these through. You need to be able to discuss all issues effectively. Never bring up previously unresolved issues - they are in the past and that is where they should be left. Never discuss issues with your partner if you haven't resolved this emotionally with your self first. If thinking about an issue makes you feel upset or angry, then do not bring this up with your partner. If you do, there is a chance that the your emotions will get the better of you, you will not be thinking or communicating clearly if this happens. Which can lead to an argument. Discuss things objectively and think with an open mind. If you want him to understand you, you must be willing to understand and listen to him too.

Updates-- after exams

2010-05-05T07:11:00.000-07:00

Its been long time since i write on my blog. exams are FINALLY over. my study life (as a full-time student) is OFFICIALLY over. oh my, i am getting old already.. suddenly a lot of complicated feelings... going to work soon, feeling a bit scared... getting old--> a bad thing? maybe... maybe not... at least we are one step closer to our dream :)

so exams are over, i should have more time to blog now. and what shall i do? oh man, feel like there are so many things i wanna do but dunno which to start first.. hmm lets see:

1) Play with my niece
2) Bake some cupcakes
3) Exercise and keep fit
4) Watch HK dramas
5) Watch downloaded movies6) Watch flashforward with dar
7) Go universal studios!
8) Plan Europe trip
9) Rearrange my room furniture
........ Cant think of what else to do....... that's it for now

2 days ago went to watch the iron man 2. Before the movie, me and dar went to eat Swensens! their Arrabbiata penne pasta was really spicy! and then we ate our favourite sundae at Swensens - Choco crunch hotfudge sundae!

The movie was long awaited by me and dar. i love all the cool graphics when tony stark uses his technology to dismantle and analyse the model structure. wish in reality that hologram technology really exists! tooo bad, i guess we have to wait for a few more decades.. and i actually missed the after credits cinematics!! oh man!! stupid me.... should have waited till after credits. but even after i watched on youtube i still dun quite understand haha. i think only those people who read the marvel comics would understand. im sure those people who dun read the comics or dunno abt the marvel storyline, would be like "huh...." after they watched the secret ending haha. yay another sequel to iron man, looking forward to it. really love robert downey jr.

Last week went to vivo and so qiao saw Rachel Liang's meet the fans session. took a video and photos of her. She is really pretty and look like a doll in her new image. And she can sing well too. but i dunno why she has so little fans, plus i heard a guy beside me who told his gf to go because he dunno who is Rachel Liang!!!

today i went to the SG flyer with Yunwei and Sara. we had the student deal of $10. when the flyer capsule was not moving at all, we were so freaked out cos we tot the flyer got technical problem again. Before that and during lunch, we were still saying that it is quite cool to abseil down the flyer in case we get stuck up there. plus now they got foood ration, drinks and urine bag under the seat for emergency cases. We were panicking when we see that the capsule was nto moving when we were midway through our journey to the top. As you can see, our confidence in the flyer is really that little.

After SG flyer, we walked over to the new helix bridge, under the scorching hot sun. then we walked on to the marina bay sands shopping mall. me and sara really wanted to go into the casino to take a look,but need $100 entrance fee!!! we walked a long long way, took many photos. im so tired from all the walking but at the same time, very happy!

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Touching lyrics

Never took special notice of this song, thought it was very simple and cliche, but after looking at the lyrics, i think it is really sweet... just suddenly feel that it's really sweet. Enjoy:

"When You Say Nothing At All"

It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
Try as I may
I could never explain
What I hear when
You don't say a thing

The smile on your face
Let me know
That you need me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all

All day long
I can hear people
Talking out loud
But when you hold me near
You drown out the crowd
(The crowd)
Try as they may
They could never define
What's been said
Between your
Heart and mine

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

To my darling

2010-03-31T03:19:00.000-07:00

Suddenly was listening to this song by Jolin and realise the lyrics is beautiful. Wanna dedicate to you darling, hope you get well soon k? Dun wish to fall sick everyday, u not sick i will still take care of you de.

地震的夜晚趕來作伴

重感冒的凌晨煮著稀飯

這個讓我哭過的人多麼溫暖

我感謝我們不完美卻坦白自然

我們從牽手放手又牽手走過來

願意為更懂你的心 Spending all my life

每當情緒像海你隻抱我從不催我講出來

我就明白你是我的依賴

地震的夜晚趕來作伴

重感冒的凌晨煮著稀飯

這個讓我哭過的人多麼溫暖

我感謝我們不完美卻坦白自然

我們從期待失落又期待走過來

願意為一起看未來 Spending all my life

每當變成習慣生活太淡總有感動的意外

我就明白你是我的依賴

就算是幸福都由老天在管

隻借不送我還是不肯還用真愛耍賴

我們從日出日落又日出走過來

願意為愛你去忙碌 Spending all my life

每當命運變幻需要狂歡需要流淚你都在

我就明白你是我的依賴

我們明白愛是互相依賴

CNY + V day 2010

2010-02-21T08:10:00.000-08:00

time to update my VERY rusty blog. shall start off the new year with a blog about CNY and v day.

CNY was as usual.. hmm. reunion dinner at my aunt's place.. most of the kids have grown up, each doing their own stuff, my cousins no longer play childish games with us, so we just stick to playing card games ourselves.

1st day of CNY was a real busy day. i had to be the chauffeur to drive my ppl around. first my family, then sj's family haha. this yr's cny i tried a new way to makeup, which is draw bottom eyeliner, a way i learnt from TWF makeup lesson. i think it makes me looker brighter instead of having dull eyes.

after having dinner at sj's aunt place, we set off for our planned v day dinner. i gotta tell eveyone that parking at Chijmes is a really really bad idea.... we got conned totally.... it was $10 per entry!! and we only parked for around 3 hrs!! gosh... and next, we got conned by the restaurant too! we were like forced to order the set menu as indicated by the waiter. so we had to eat the full course of meal (appetiser, main course, dessert). we were so full! yet had to try to finish the food else waste our $$ but i got to say the food is pretty nice, especially the garlic bread, which is like super super long. anw the cafe is called esmirada or sth like that. main course was good, but dessert im a bit disappointed becos the tiramisu lack a taste of liquer. i think my tiramisu taste better than theirs hhaha.

then went esplanade to walk walk, but its a really really bad idea cos we totally forgot it was CNY, so there was CNY celebration at esplanade.. -.- so end up there were a lot of 'lightbulbs' around, plus a lot of banglahs.... -.- sj was really pissed at them for staring at me, so we gotta leave early.. sigh..

i think im really lcky at playing blackjack, cos when im the dealer, i alw win over everyone else's money! lol

recently, my bro just got enlisted into army, he came back botak! plus i dun really get to see him le, cos he gotta pei his gf!! hope he can pull thru the army, im sure he can haha. im just so so glad that sj is no longer in the army. its really a tough time, for both of us during that time. now that i see my bro, and others who are in the army, seeing how their gfs feel sad for not seeing the guys, it just reminds me of the time i had went thru. jia you gals, you must be strong for ur guys to pull thru the army with a positive attitude! we are their pillar of mental support! <3

took this myself when it was red light lol.

Picture at esplanade with my dar.

Look at the long bread! we had no idea how to eat at first

left to right: me, my niece, my cousin. we all had hair accessories!!!

Updates!!

2009-06-18T06:08:00.000-07:00

Alright first of all, let me call out to marketing grads or poly diploma holders. i have a marketing job opportunity available. Consulting firm ICFE Consuting Group Pte Ltd looking for telemarketer for financial products. It's a perm job. They are looking for uni grads, diploma holders are welcome too. Pay + commision. Training will be available to help employees meet sales target. Can visit firm's webbie at http://www.icfe-cg.com/ . anyone interested can email Ariel@icfe-cg.com ur resume or for any enquiries. She is a nice person to work with :) Or anyone who knows anyone who is finding mkting job, help to pass the msg along. Thx!

alright some updates. Last sat, finally got to sing kbox!! went to safra jurong west n tried their 'touch screen' ktv system. well, not very feasible since its touch screen yet it's so far away at a corner of the room. so i keep having to stand up n go press the screen to select. not very feasible to hav touch screen in this kind of situation afterall. well, kbox at safra jurong west is not really updated with songs lor. lousy man. n i realised that i hav been keeping up with new songs, since i know how to sing quite a few of them. lol sj is really getting old cos he dunno many new songs.

on sun, we had a extended family lunch at sentosa marine cove, yacht club, at one degree 15. drove 3 cars and only paid $2 for entry since my cousin work at sentosa. wooots! so sj drove my car n we followed my dad's and my cousin's bf's car lol. if we add some ribbons onto our car it would seem like a bridal thing with all the cars tailing behind lol. really rich ppl stay at the marine cove lor. and they own their own yacht. there are even diff types of yacht. some looked like 'sports car like' yacht. damn cool. we went to imperial treasure at one degree 15. the dim sum was quite salty imo. but everyone else think it's fantastic. but their shou mian (noodle) and fried rice was really really nice! haha then we ate cold red bean soup for dessert. i think it's jus normal. i recalled for mother's day meal we went to liang court 'shin yeh' for a meal. their red bean dessert was UBER nice! its red bean ice dessert and they add fen yuan from taiwan. anw it's a taiwanese chinese restaurant. i would go back again for its desserts.

After lunch on sun, we drove to vivo to walk a bit and my mum bought a touch screen phone samsung presto for sj. haha so nice, it's white lor! then we drove to ritz carlton to meet my dad. we got someone to show us the MILLENIA suite at Ritz! its damn big n nice! guess the price? 1k plus for a night! next was deluxe room, and then a premier suite, which my dad got for my bdae. hopefully can catch the F1 race during my bdae. we went to bugis and tried the teadot cafe. the tea it's really nice! it's at the new shopping mall oppo bugis which i cant recall the name now lol.

bdae celebration at Q&M gourmet pub

2009-05-08T06:37:00.000-07:00

last last week after exams, went ot watch CATS musical @ esplanade. it was really nice:) lots of dance apart from singing. lots of ballet dance moves too! tix was ex, it cost us $200 in total but i think it was worth the money. my very very first musical at the esplanade. the programme booklet was quite ex lol $20. regret that i din buy the soundtrack.

on wednesday met up with emilia and feli to shop @ vivocity. hav been online shopping recently but haven really went out to shop. on my way to meet emilia, one salesgal approached me and buffed my nails. lol it was really shiny but i really din expect the price to be $90 per nail kit ($70 for a nail buffer). luckily the salesgal sold it to us w/o commission. so each of us got the kit for $35 each. yups, jus like emilia, im happy with this purchase cos since i dun put nail polish, i can buff my nails to make it look shiny:) We took quite some effort trying to find yenling's present lol. walked the whole vivo till our legs and feet are sore and tired. well, at least my feet really hurt these few days since wed. baaad idea to wear heels to shop. but lol, i wore heels cos my pants require me to wear heels so as to look nice haha.

we ate dinner at the queen and mangosteen british gourmet pub at vivo. well, lets see, the ambience was nice, service gd and food was delicious!

ambience: 8/10

service: 9/10

food: 8.5/10

nice place to go! we sat there since 6 plus and ate till near 11. after dinner, i went to pick up my car alone, and when i was at the gantry, i realise i forgot to top up my cashcard! had to go back to vivo and top up, by then, it was pretty empty and security guards were all locking up the doors. it was a bit scary to be walking ard at the time alone. on my way back home, i really cant concentrate on the road, my eyes were super dry and tired from contact lens. it was really quite dangerous but im glad i reahed home safely.

these are some pics of us and the yummy food!

grilled chicken leg with some mango sauce. chicken meat was tender and sauce was delicious!

fish and chips for $12. worth the money!

chilled prawns with marie rose dip or sth? forgot the name of the sauce but i jus LOVE the sauce!

creme brulee and fruit crumble. <3>

Exams over!!

2009-04-17T01:27:00.000-07:00

Yay my exams finally over!! studied and pia-ed hard for one full month, including projects. finally.. and today was my last paper. accounting paper was.. erm.. i really dunno how i will fare.. but well, 4 modules this semester, and the papers seem fine. well i did quite well for my 202 projects, except for 201.. :( anil is like stingy with his report marks.... B+... hais....sad.. but i really really wish can pull me back up to first class honours??? pls pls.... give me at least an A or A- for my papers??

well end of exams also means end to sleepless nights.. (hopefully).. someone pls help me... i cant fall asleep!! i tried all ways, went jogging, drank honey b4 i sleep.. all cant work for me.. i hav very serious insomnia!! help me......

well.. i dunno how m i gonna spend my holidays b4 my prof attachment starts. hmm go out with my gal frens and of cos shop.. i wanna buy clothes.. gonna dye my hair too, but hais. gonna spend quite a lot on hair yet again, wat to do, my hair so long, dyeing and treatment all cost so much more than short hair. but im so happy cos my hair is growing pretty long:) stay away from heat and hope my hair grows even longer:)

for now, clear up my room, my wardrobe, hmm raid wow?? really dun feel like, but if my guild wants me to i hav no choice. hmm wat else, go out shopping! haha. but im really looking fwd to a chalet. hais, wanna go on a holiday. and not forgeting we hav to start FYP now!! damn sian. but must pia.

as for PA, well,dun dare to think abt it, honestly i hav a bit of my worries when it comes to working cos i seriously hav very bad experience at my previous workplace... hmmm need money too$$$ go for retail therapy to enjoy myself.

Love this pic cos the bg very nice:) found a very nice spot at ECP becos for this spot, the beach was very wide

tis was taken at a spanish restaurant at vivo when we having dinner with my family. my family was so shy when i tried to take pictures of them!! but the restaurant had very nice decor cos it took after the greece decor design, tho im wondering why they use greece design when it is actually a spanish restaurant. ex menu, but food very nice. even for its westerm food. too bad i missed their flamenco dance perf cos was rushing to fetch my bro:( and i realise spanish music is VERY NICE!!

Board meeting trouble

2009-03-25T00:18:00.000-07:00

yes.. so busy recently due to the projects in school. my frens only can see me online when im doing projects. even tho im online, i cant chat cos i have to complete the work. zz.... especially the aa202 board meeting that has been giving me so much trouble.. so suay to be the owners of the board meeting!! especially when ur meeting consists of groups who are freaking competitive and hostile! Hello!! dun push all the blame to the owners when we are already trying to do our best in our role, whatever time u all depts spend on the report, we owners spend twice as much time as you i swear!! so freaking shut up ur big mouths and listen to our assumptions! dun try to leave in ur own world, own assumptions in first few weeks and only tell us abt YOUR assumption last 2 days to the meeting MR goatie YEO YH and team. caught us in the middle and got blamed by another jacket guy when we were actuallly trying to be impartial and fair to everyone! u guys dun think we gals can be bullied and try to be hostile to us, we can also stand up for ourselves and rebutt u back with equallly strong and solid arguments!

i so wish mr yeo noes abt this blog. u made tis like a war, u will get a war on fri.

Spending spree

2009-03-12T08:48:00.000-07:00

Today after school rushed down to Suntec tgt with shao jie to meet my dad to go for the burberry fair. ytd my dad spent thousands there till the cashier ppl recognised him as their big customer. today i wanna go there see if can get a gd bargain for its bags. but so sad, the $600 tote cloth bag was sold le, today left all the leather bags which i really dun like. ytd my dad should hav bought that tote bag :( so i looked ard, feeling sad if i dun get sth lol since i travelled all the way down from boon lay. wanted to buy this black tank top with golden words saying "burberry established since..." b4 discount it was $450, after discount, it is $132... still my gosh...... so ex for a tank top!! so continued to look ard n saw this particular translucent black dress that a lot of women picked it up from the rank. so i went to take it n found that wow its XS!!!! so i went to try it when the other women put it back on the rack. its really beautiful. b4 discount was $575, after discount: $175. but i think its a better bargain than the tank top. since my dad felt bad abt not buying me the bag, he offered to buy me the dress. haha really big thanks to him for buying so much things for me today.

after burberry fair, we went over to take a peek at the IT fair, n i ended up buying a cybershot camera lol. cos i've alw wanted to buy one, have been saving up for one, till now only got $200, so my dad sponsored the balance. the camera was a fair bargain, $100 less than retail price. n its a hot red colour haha cool.. now i have a camera of my own, more pictures and more cam whoring!

21st bdae ideas

2009-03-03T06:06:00.000-08:00

taking a break from my studies and googling ard for 21st bdae ideas.. hmm 2 of my frens would be having their 21st bdae this march. one of them celebrating at chalet, another on not really holding a party. so im jus wondering wat shall i do?? cos if i wanna hold a high tea party, i think need to make reservations soon..

lemme see, i would love a private gathering,at home or sth cos im not really a party chic :S like it to be private. but.. i held hse party for my 12th yr old party leh lol wan sth different this time. that would depends on my parents' budget. dun wan them to spend too much. i probably wun go for hotel ballroom like my cousins.. i shalll use my own money next time for those places for my wedding instead haha. it would probably be a high tea buffet, anyone got suggestions on nice high tea places? i wanna hold it at my secret garden too.. i shall try to enquiry abt it. but i might hold it at kbox LOL! but love to sing, so mayb i should really hold my bdae at kbox so i can sing all i wan n enjoy with my frens:)

comments pls!!:)

Buried by projects!

2009-02-24T07:29:00.001-08:00

Hmm cobwebs all over my blog le. suddenly hav the motivation to blog now. well, firstly, i would like to recommend a eatign place for everyone. It's carnivore. yes, this place isnt new, many of u might have heard of it, but... i only got to try it recently during v day. the one at Chijmes has really nice atmosphere:) oh ya, on the day when i went there, there was a weddding solemnization at Chijmes.it was open air solemnization, quite pretty:) tho not my dream wedding solemnization lol. anw, yups, i love chijmes. i think its a romantic place. And as for carnivore, it has very gd service:) im one who is damn particular at how gd the restaurants' services are. so im pretty satisfied with the service over at carnivore.n the d thing is although it is buffet style, but u dun hav to walk ard to get ur food ;)

last sat i drove to pasir ris for an outing with my dar. cos we got free wild wild wet and theme park tix. lol had a great time, but too bad i dun dare to take those rides, tho i think they r fun if i dare to play. the queue for go kart was damn long, but once again i din get to try the single go-kart cos after the family go-kart ride,i started having knee probs n cant walk. sj still had to carry me up the carpark to get our car.. and we tried to find our way to east coast part to eat at the hawker. i think we were really lucky to find a seat that is the nearest to the sea and had a great sea view:) tho ppl were sharing same table as us n i find them quite 'lightbulbs'

hmm these few days have been tied down by a lot of projects. damn... cant wait for holidays to come le.but dun wan internship to come too. working is tiring.. studying still better. but of cos, slacking is the happiest thing in the world.lol

Christmas time!!

2008-12-23T03:40:00.001-08:00

Booya! it's christmas soon! so lemme wish everyone a merry christmas!! :) Seasons greetings!

Lemme blog about my recent genting trip tgt with sj. It was my second time going to genting. Weather was pretty cold when i went cos it kept raining. And i hate the hotel. it was so small and cramped up. plus the toilet has no lock!! Furthermore, the shower cubicle and toilet bowl and the sink are all separated! oh wells, cheap ma.. First day was a shopping day. bought lots of things tgt with sj. Realised genting really chged a lot.. lots of shops over there now. in the past there used to be only 1 theme park de. First night cld not slp... zzz.... kept waking up, think i might hav disturbed sj's mum. Second day we went to sunway pyramid shoppin complex. it was SUPER big. and the food at mong kok cha chan teng where we went to eat lunch was super nicceeeee:) too bad sg onli got one branch and the branch here isnt as nice. at night was as usual, walked ard looking for supper and things to shop with dar. First time sj initiated to shop and buy his clothes cos he wanted to dress up for my sake:)

Hmm... recently planned to go clubbing with sj and his frens. but cant believe it that last min, after i went all to way to semb then sj's frens pang sei us.. super pissed... wat kind of frens are they.... well this was one of the incident that really really pissed me off and disappointed me. took me efforts to persuade my mum to lemme go clubbing. yet they pang sei...

birthday at mint museum cafe

2008-10-19T07:35:00.000-07:00

today went to my niece genevieve's 1st ever birthday party at mint museum of toys cafe. She was dressed like a little princess:) My cousin had the whole basement booked n decorated the place with balloons. Food was not bad, there was tartine, spaghetti, sandwiches, wings, fried fish, cakes as dessert. but i nv take any pics of the food:( at the party, we were wearing mickey-mouse-headband as well as princess tiara headbands. lol my bro looks pretty cute in it haha.after cake cutting session, we had a piniatta session. lol it was my first saw a piniatta! they hit it hard n all the candies came out. its a lot of candies! n we were all picking up the sweets! esp lollipops! ahha quite fun. oh yea, on a side note, i drove to the mint museum today. at first din dare, cos it's gonna be my first time driving to bugis area lol. but im so glad i drove to raffles hotel heehee. so after party,i had to drive my family back home. n we took a lot of balloons home.

my bro had lots of fun with the balloons even tho they alr so old le...zzz.... we did a little experiment to try to float balloons in mid air, that means balancing the buoyancy with the weight of the balloons. well.. physics.. haha we succeed, jus that we cant eliminate the forces of resistance.

me n dar in mickey-mouse-headband

My cute niece - Genevieve

The happy daddy n mummy with their princess

The piniatta
Look at the number of sweets from the piniatta!

My generation

Our mid-air balloon

my bro doing dumb things -.-"

my bro's idea:)

a chocolatey night

2008-10-11T09:08:00.000-07:00

ytd went out to celebrate darling's bdae. finally our makeover pics are rdy for collection. Im really quite pleased with the pics. then we head over to bugis to eat a random bunch of food for dinner, like rice balls, fried chicken chop, tako pachi etc. then i brought sj to is surprise for his bdae, which is chocolate buffet at fullerton hotel!

the atmosphere over at fulerton hotel was really nice, n we sat at a table facing the music band. n while we ate chocolates, sipping peppermint tea, the band played my fav song, "canon in D". it was really quite a romantic place. there were only 3 counters of chocolate and we felt it was quite little, however, we only managed to get 2 sevings of chocolate and cld not eat more than that. we felt really full, n the chocolate was so sweet that we grew so sick of it.. we shld not hav taken so much at one go, cos we end up having a bad time over at boat quay trying to digest the chocolate in our stomach lol. however, i must say that some chocolates are worth mentioning at fullerton. for eg its expresso cake, lychee tiramisu was quite refreshing, hot choco was really creamy and rich.

a rainy and moody day

2008-10-06T03:12:00.000-07:00

zzz... just woke up from a nice gd nap. slept really late last night cos i knew i usu get my sunday insomnia, thanks to business research ab213 class. group dynamics, politics... brrr..... hate it..

long time since i blogged... hmmm well... let me wat i hav missed out. ah my bdae, went to tcc, my fav restaurant. the tiramisu there is so unique, taste of expresso and rum was so strong. main course there was not superb.. will only go back there for drinks and dessert. went to try the sg flyer for the first time b4 the launch of the F1 night race. eh.. pretty boring.... esp with so many ppl inside the same capsule... so many "lightbulbs".. :s

anw, wanna thank everyone who rmbed my bdae, including david who sent me a bdae msg, thank all my gal frens for the presents, i really appreciate them:)

went for makeover session on the 26 sep with sj, it was really quite a fun experience. haha for the first time i tried to perm my hair with big waves and curls. i was pretty scared i will look old, but it turned out fine:) cant wait for the pics to be out. check back here this weekend for a glimpse of my makeover.

recently went to holland village with sara, sq, and weiqi for a dinner. went over to wala wala for a drink. singapore sling is gross.. nv gonna drink it again. a mixture of so many types of alcohol inside that i cant even tell which one im allergic to. had rashes after the drink and it lasted the whole night, limbs started to itch when i got home. and i think i drank a little to fast that night cos the gals din wanna stay till too late, so i sipped and sipped thru the straw, trying to finish 1.5 cups, n i got intoxication with my eyeballs red. next time must learn not to drink so fast.

this sat is gonna be an exciting one haha. going f******** h**** for a little surprise for my dar. just that im pretty broke and wont be able to buy nice ex presents for u:)

recently went to watch eagle eye as recommended by my bro, cos the lead guy was from even stevens if anyone ever watched it b4 on disney channel. he has grown up quite a bit lol. well, the movie was action action and more action.

during hari raya hol went to vivo with sj, and my parents. zzz... its pretty tough buying toys for babies. imagine paying $50 - 80 plus bucks for a toy that will only last the baby for 1-2 months?? lol big investment man. saw all the little houses, small slides at toys 'r' us, they are my childhood dream toys. think i will probably buy those for my kids next time. provided i get to live in a hse with a garden... : tried to eat dinner at food republic but there were too many ppl, so we da bao and had a small picnic at vivo's rooftop facing sentosa. Its a pretty nice place and idea to picnic there.

wanna go sing kbox, but i noe everyone's so busy... if anyone wants to sing, pls tell me.

K should start on my tuts le. posting some pics here.

Projects... -.-

2008-09-18T07:08:00.000-07:00

Sigh........................... A big long sigh for my project...... And thx to the 213 prof, now my plans for my big tmr is totally ruined by her.

Anw, went to watch Boys over Flowers ytd with sara, its a nice show... i still love hana yori dango. the guy acting as domyoji, (dunno his realname) was pretty gd, at least that's wat i think. sigh.. the movie is so sweet... i felt that during the sweet moments, most of the gals in the cinema would go like "aww..." haha. esp the nice grand wedding part at the end.

2 more hours..lalala... actually dun even noe if i should be happy or not... cos old liao lol

Im back:)

2008-09-16T18:39:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. wonder when will i really be determined enough to keep updating my blog lol.but oh wells.. jus updating whenever i feel like beh. School work is really stressing me out.but i hav absolutely no idea why. mayb i took up toomany courses this sem? or is it becos of the increased in the workload in year 2? i really dun ha enough time to complete my work and it's really costing me a lot of energy and effort to keep up with my study schedule.

There is this local exchange program with nus or smu.im really wondering if i should go for it since i din apply for overseas exchange prog, n i dun wanna go overseas cos im so gonna miss my home n the ppl here so dearly.. i want to go for the local exchange solely becos i can clear the difficult subjects and not bring back the grades that might affect my GPA.But im pretty scared of doing the exchange alone.lol i will be so blur over at nus. anyone advise me pls? if i should go for the local exchange?

Gonna update wat has been missing out on my blog for the past months.. hmm.. cld onli rmb maf. din noe that i was so passsionate towards hwa chong!!!???? im shocked by my own emotions also. i guess my dad was right abt hc alumni being very deep rooted to the school. but really enjoyed myself during maf, tho not many ppl from my class went back:( as usual, i enjoyed the mass dance session:) hee.. i jus wish for the next few yrs, we will all still be going back for maf. ok for now pictures taken during maf:

Not forgeting that the gathering i had with my gal frens from hc. Had a picnic for dinner over at weiqi's nus studio. lol, yeti n gang brought us so much 'entertainment'. alright let the pics tell the story:

Birth of yetitotally sick pictures, but seriously such actions are not my idea lol.

Newborn yeti

ok gonna stop now and get back to work. shall try to blog tonight if i hav the time:)

Shopping + really broke :S

2008-05-24T08:16:00.000-07:00

Today watched the mist dvd. hmph.. gory show... yet again.. was watching with dar n his mum. n i was like pretty freaked out n was covering my eyes. i bet i was making a fool of myself in front of his mum lol.. terribly sad n bad ending... well.... wat can i say leh, stephen King story afterall.

went shopping with emilia in the evening. yay i got my eye cream n she got her makeup base. Happy:) best thing is i get a new bag!! from espirit. haha both me n emilia got the same bag. adding to the joy, i got myself an espirit membership card. but im starting to wonder if its worth to pay anther 50 bucks worth of voucher for the card. cld it be an impulsive decision again??

going to eat buffet with my family tmr.. yay happy, long time nv go out with them le.

Job + Sales + happy:)

2008-05-23T07:21:00.000-07:00

Woots! recently started working for my dad.Hmm.. all i can say is im paid to sit in office to slack off. lol. he wanted me to write out a catalog for him, saying that my english is good. well...my language sucks badly man... haha lucky my dar language so pro, helped me.

Today cant wait to get off work. Cos im going shopping with dar. Bought a skirt cos i need to wear for salsa but yet to find the suitable pair of heels. Oh yea,im learning salsa! pretty amazed with my courage lol. wonder if i will dare to shake my butt. But i need a butt and a waist so i hope salsa will help?

GSS started man, there were so many ppl shopping!! O.o saw all the guys lining up n waiting outside the shops while their gfs shopped inside. that stopped me from shoping cos i dun wan him to wait for me like that.so poor thing..

ok today i knew abt a good news. im so happy for the person:) Bless you with sweet bliss:)

and back to wow...

Giving this blog a third chance

2008-05-20T01:58:00.000-07:00

Hmm dunno y but suddenly felt like blogging again, but i dun think it will last very long. Wonder who still visits this dead blog. But nonetheless, to anyone who still visits or happens to visit this blog, tag the board k :)

Couple of updates.. Had a nice weekend.

Last thu went to shop with my gal frens. Long time since i hav shopped like this. Quite fun and satisfying for being able to find couple of blouses which i like and of my sizes at a worthwhile price:)

Fri till sat, i spent most of my time playing WOW at home or at sj hse. Finally lvl 70 but stil got tons of preparation work to do before my char can really raid. Hate those buggers who blame my priest char for not being able to heal well.

Well, sat met up with fantasix for kbox, whereby only 4 ppl including me turned up. I realised im really getting old. I really dunno most of the songs and i jus spent 4 hrs sitting there listening to the pros sing,haha. After kbox, went to watch dancenight 2008 shake. They were great, especially the hip hop items. HC breaking has also improved:) 5 of us were so hyped up that night that we took really crazy photos. N thx to my bro for being our photographer haha. We all realised we all getting old alr. cant jump n move around as much haha. n i really strained my back after the phototaking. :S However, within 1 sat, i burnt a big hole in my wallet. all the tix, kbox, taxi fares :S thats y i really need to find a job else im really broke. Really paiseh to ask him for more jia1 yong4 alr..

Went to watch what happened in vegas ytd.It was quite a nice show. a bit touching at some parts. But i still prefer the humour in made of honour.

Thats abt it, i guess i will try to blog soon. Hope i can get a job real soon too...

Over the weekends

2008-03-16T19:17:00.000-07:00

long time no blog alr.. busy busy busy wit projects and presentations. Finally!! a break during the weekends! :)

Sat: Went to watch step 2 the streets! I love dance movies! heard ppl ard me say it's not nice. but love it so much! i guess perhaps only dance ppl like me and my dance team enjoy it ba. Wanted to watch with david but he went with kegan eventually. Watching such dance shows really send all our hearts pumping! n i nearly clapped after the finale dance at the last part! lol. Really miss dance, really miss my JC dance team. Gonna meet up with david real soon to catch up. Waiting for germ to come back and fantasix can meet up too!
On sat i played this aeroplane thing at the arcade, woots im pretty zai lol, i beat sj haha. cos i always play that aeroplane thing since young. Then me n sj went to send our rings for engraving :)

I have been hooked onto monster hunter 2! die.. must concentrate on work more now onwards...

Boring recess week...

2008-02-27T03:30:00.000-08:00

argh.. wat a boring week.. whole day cooped up at home mugging.. can imagine how sian i m? i noe i hav lots lots of work to do... but still.. mug 5 days in a row????? i aint no superwoman. sigh. getting pretty addicted to spree these few days. probably becos i m at home for 24 hrs?? lol. yay waiting for my shoes from gojane, that reminds me i haven pay feli's fren yet. Im excited to get my accessories (from korea) that i ordered too!!! i think they are really nice:) i haven shop for earrings for a very very long time le. Anw today so pissed. i saw this spree which sells really nice accessories from taiwan! i wan the crystal bangles la!!!! and lots of nice guys accessories that i can buy for sj too!!! T.T sobz..... hopefully someone will organise the spree again!! sobz...

k timeto go for dinner. cant wait for SAT!!!! time to go out and recharge again!! getting my ring :)

We got our answer

2008-02-24T18:21:00.000-08:00

Wow, wat an exciting sat. two shocks in a day. neither of us can take it. we asked and we got the answers. well, final answer is a pretty big blow to me. oh well, but finally got over it. After sat, i finally heard my dad says im her precious daughter, n he also said i might inherit his business.. wow.. And such news spread really fast.. lol.. so paiseh.. nonetheless, i guess perspectives have changed since the sat incident. And we will endure through it. :)

Why wear wedding ring n fourth finger?

2008-02-20T17:41:00.000-08:00

Try this out! its amazing lol!

Thumb represents parents
Second finger represents brothers & sisters
Center finger represents own self
Fourth finger represents your partner
Last finger represents your children
Why should the wedding ring be put on the fourth finger?
Please follow the steps below
Firstly, show your palm, center finger bend and put together back to back
Secondly, the rest 4 fingers tips to tips as shown in the pic ..
Try to open your thumb
the thumb represents parents
it can be open because every human does go thru sickness and death
which means our parents will leave us one day.
Please close up your thumb
then open your second finger
the second finger represents brothers and sisters
they do have their own family which too means that they will leave us too.
Now close up your second finger
open up your little finger
this represents your children
sooner or later they too will leave us for they have their own life to live.
Nevertheless, close up your little finger
try to open your fourth finger in which we put our wedding ring
you will be surprise to find that it cannot be open at all
because it represents husband and wife
this whole life you will be attached to each other.
Real love will stick together ever and forever. . .
Source: http://www.madmasti.com/

Our dream...

2008-02-19T17:18:00.000-08:00

We Saw this on V day. Really really love it.. It has a special meaning to us:)"Together is the nicest place to be"

PS i love you

2008-02-17T07:31:00.000-08:00

Ytd finally went to watch the movie PS i love you. Review all says its not nice, but i enjoyed the movie.. haha.. at least i feel i can relate to it. Well i cried during the movie.. haha but was so embarrassed to let other ppl see (or at least not let sj see), i jus let my tears flow and refusedto use my hand n wipe them. lol. review said that it was very fake, but i really noe how it might feel like.. It really terrible and it really would feel like the end of world.. i felt it b4, in my dream, the feeling was really real in my dream that i feel no will to live on. overall ju feel that the movie is pretty touching, even sj saidthat he almost cried. haha my silly baby is a sensitive-age guy lol..

now im doing my tut and really having a super difficult time solving my stat tut.. argh.. my weakest topic in math.. i jus really wish for this sem to be over!!

Chinese New Year

2008-02-09T16:49:00.000-08:00

Woots! This yr's CNY got a lot more ang bao money then before. And i won a lot of money from blackjack this yr hee.. On chu yi, thats where our BJ game starts. i was the dealer and i got a blackjack once, got a pair of ace once. So i won really tons of money! felt embarrassed to take the money from my cousins cos its really a lot of money. My baby niece was so pretty, wearing a pink netted dress. But she was really tired i guess, always being carried around by ppl. SJ came to my hse and BJ continues haha..well my luck continues till night time.

Chu Er, i went bai nian with SJ to his relative hse. Got lots of ang bao and i was wondering how come his relative gave me so much money. I guess this yr we got more money going into our savings:) Well, the adults there din include the children for their BJ game, so i actually played dynasty warrior with his cousin.

Chu san, din go bai nian, went out with SJ for v day. Surprisingly there were so many ppl at vivo. we went bakerzin to just eat dessert and it cost us 34 bucks!! dun even hav iced water, only serves evian o.0 And two of us got approached by two guys. one asked us where is daiso mascot o.0 Another one i suspect is doing a survey. He said he n his grp of frens cant decide wat movie to watch so asked us for opinion. Whether to watch CJ or ah long or kungfu dunk. haha wat an innovative way for survey. Sj actually tricked me to go to the toilet and he went off to buy plushie for me. i was waiting outside the toilet, wondering how come i was faster than him.Then he came bck with two plushies. but they looked really cheapo n ugly haha. but still,i appreciate the love.

And today stuck at home:( starting tut lo

Our couple watch:)

Modestos - its realy nice :) my third time eating here

CNY eve

2008-02-06T07:32:00.000-08:00

Hmm let me start with wat i hav done ytd. well i finally pulled through OB presentation :) Pretty scary haha. And surprisingly my teacher noes my name!! omg.. next time must pay attention in class le. Anw, after school, went to meet sj to watch movie. watched sweeney todd. hmph.. i noe it's gory but i still went to watch it for the music. but.. to my disappointment, the music is not nice.. at least to me la.. a bit disappointed. :( After movie, me n sj really had a hard time to find a v day gift for each other.. can't really afford such high end watches, but we dun wanna get those cheapo ones haha,so in the end we got a pair of mickey mouse watches! lol even my bro says we are childish. haha but well, i tot mickey mouse is quite universal? Two of us happy can alr :)
As fortoday..hmm early morn started studying alr. having giddy spells all day. Terrible. so had to stop studying. wasted one day off. And apparently my bro n mum say i should i not study on a CNY eve becos of some superstition. oh well. i jus relax for now n wait to play WOW with sj ba.
Happy CNY to all :)

Reborn

2008-02-02T18:27:00.000-08:00

Feels like i have reborn. After being thru the past few hectic days, i tot im on the vege of breakign down. mayb i did too. and totally burnt out, dreading school evry single day. But at least, now i got most of my projects settled, feels so much better now. Jus that there is one more OB presentation b4 i can really rest for the coming CNY. Stressed.. OB... hopefully i can present well on tue.
My tut piling up, but i still procrastinating. argh. Ytd, went for last min shopping. Still cant find our v day gift.. :( going out on tue again. ytd went out with my family, uncle, aunt and cousins for dinner and CNY goodies shopping. My cousin brought her baby out. haha she looks so cute..:) Had salmon at swens"o"ns. Their salmon sucks. i cook better salmon than them.lol
Wow there were a lot of people at giant. It totally sucks to push te trolley ard in there cos the aunties totally do not move away even i u say "excuse me"
Saw a proposal ring on my cousin's finger. It has a real big diamond on it.Wow i bt her bf proposed le. feels so happy for her :) meaning there isbridesmaid gown for me again lol
Looking fwd to CNY :)

Realise selective memory is very useful. use it whenever u dun wanna think or rmb sth that makes u unhappy...

christmas

2007-12-23T22:19:00.000-08:00

ytd went to celebrate christmas. went out to shop for gifts n clothes. end up sj was really amazed at the amt of stuff i bought. well..but most of the stuff are not for me. haha. bought a purple dress that dar chose for me. i got VS hairstylin set for christmas. i really love it, next time can straighten n curl my hair le. went to topshop n enchg my niece shirt. but this guy at he counter said not allowed to exchg baby stuff. -.- wat can we do if they dun allow us to exchg??i dun hav another baby who can fit into that shirt! in the end manager allowed us to exchg. dar callled that guy a noob... argh.. we went to take neoprint too. a must-do yearly thing during every christmas for us. haha but this machine we used made dar looked like he put eye liner lol. we look really flawless. then we went shangrila the line for buffet dinner. hah finally dar brought me there. i love the dessert and the lobster!! in the end two of us ate till we felt like puking becos we were SO full.... took this at taka christmas tree:)

had fun 2 days in a row

2007-12-22T00:57:00.000-08:00

On thu, since sj dun need to go back camp, we decided to go je swimming complex n swim. It almost rained the whole day,we waited at je for hours for the rain to stop. We spent a lot of time at arcade, i still prefer to play daytona, but it's timefor me to train myself to play manual for daytona to master drifting. I really wanted to play basketball, but there was a big grp there so scared paiseh. dar tried the mudpie mcflurry from macs. It was really nice:) too bad i cant eat anything cold on that day.

Then the rain reduced to a drizzle n we decided to go swim. i was so scared we will be the onli two there. But later i saw kids running towards the complex n i became so excited too! Dar n i love the lazy river hah. the water was warm, n we really had fun playing n sharing a float. But were so cold there..

thu evening went with dar's family for a dinner to celebrate his mum's bdae. We went to this super ulu place to eat seafood. food was ave. went back his hse, blow candle n his sis sent me home.

ytd cooked a christmas lunch for dar. i cooked pan roasted salmon with mashed potato, cream of mushroom soup n choco mousse. im glad it was quite a success aha. glad that dar liked it. He helped with the mashed potato. below is a pic of my ai xin food:)

While eating lunch, we watched night at the museum DVD. it was really farnie haha. Then we went orchard to get some christmas gifts. There were really alot of ppl. I bought one blouse for my baby niece from topshop. It was really sweet. but too bad it turns out to be small n i gotta go back chg to 6-12 mths size. :(

No life - gaming life

2007-12-16T23:38:00.000-08:00

Sat was my mum's bdae. SJ n i went marina sq to play pool first cos i suddenly had craze to play pool again. lol. Then my mum n bros met us at dohby ghaut to watch the golden compass. Hmm a bit no logic, typical of a fantasy show.but i can accept that haha. waiting for the next two episodes of golden compass. We saw this trailer for "im legend" by will smith. Dar n i wanna watch it cos it seems so exciting. but my family tot it would be so boring. lol such big differences in preferences. After movie, my mum got all excited n bought $200 worth of korean dramas vcds. lol. we jus let her buy haha. Then i bought my family to waraku at marina sq. We waited for like 1 hr plus. Surprisingly, the waitress served us cold drinks while we waiting outside. Nice service huh. The food was really gd haha. my bro, me n sj ordered sets, which contained both rice n noodles! i really had prob finishing them up. well, i jus got my bro n sj to eat it all up for me. Below are pictures of the gd food.:)

ytd was so boring.. dar came my hse n we did nth but play sims castaway on the psp. nowadays i spend whole day playing psp or wow, on weekdays play mahjong n blackjack with the children. haha thats my life right now.

Feeling a bit down right now.Im not happy with my life right now. It jus aint fair.

ok back to my wow-ing.

updates

2007-12-11T05:59:00.000-08:00

Starting off with last fri, i met up with feli n emilia to play squash in the afternoon. long time since i hav exercised. mayb we can meet up one more time to play squash or exercise b4 sch reopen. after our squash session, we went bugis for dinner to precelebrate feli's bdae. Shiqi joined us for dinner too. the service at place we went to for dinner totally sucks. i called to make reservation the day b4. but when we went there the person said no reservations being made. n we were'nt even put on priority list! but the spag was nice:)

i spent the whole of sat n sun playing world of warcraft. wanna quickly lvl up my char to lvl 70. hopefully b4 sch reopen? haha but dar said not possible.oh well. dar stayed over on sun night cos we plan to go swimming at je sports complex on mon morning. wow, we ran dungeon for world of warcraft. its the first time i ran dungeon n im quite addicted to it tho i always get very nervous. haha

mon: bad day.sports complex not open in the morn. sigh. ed up went back home to play wow again.n dar brought me to kbox to make me happy. sang for like 4 hrs str n my voice cant tahan anymore. but i broke m record again,i cld actually reach an even high note than b4. haha so happy.

today went out again. sigh hav been spending a lot lately becos kept going out. im getting a bit stressed overmoney prob. but i finally got a haircut today cos my hair looks really horrible b4 the cut. dar treated me to nydc at suntec. hmm.. baked rice dun seem very nice leh. think the branch at holland v one is better. tried the mudpie too. went to play pool after lunch. long time nv play n all my aiming angles were reallybad. but managed to gain back my skills towards the end of 2 hrs.

wow server down on maintenance. sigh.sian.. cant play...

Took this at NYDC...

Shopping craze

2007-11-28T18:36:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went out with fiona to shop. While waiting fo her i was drinking this thick chocolate milkshake which i eventually got sick of n felt like puking. i think my stomach is really weak, always make me feel like puking. Met fiona and rained heavily, hais.. the bad thing is we got stuck at cine. it is like one of the bad places to get stuck at. no underpass, nth to shop. well we managed to reach far east, haha shopping haven. we both were busy shopping for our own clothes and also a bdae present for my fren. it was like giving me headache cos it was really reall hard to find a suitable present. well but finally found a suitable one, (hopefully sara likes it), n got discount mwahahaha, so worth it,somemore it is of good quality. hmm, as for me, i found a button shirt which had one button dettached, and the shopkeeper said she dunno how to sew! but luckily i got like 10% discount since it was the last defect piece. (haha, luckily i knew how to sew, so i went back home, sewn it on and tighened the other buttons as well). It is a really nice blouse :) and i can wear it to dar's pop on sat hee hee. i hav been thinking of buying a pair hot pink stockings, but really dun dare to wear! so we hesitated at the shop for like ages, and fiona finally persuaded me to buy. hmmm, do singaporeans really dare to wear hot pink stockings on the streets? should i really wear them? so in total i spent like 50 bucks excluding present. woot, haha recently din spend much la, not an impulse shopper anymore, cos i gotta save up, for other goals :) fiona spent like 100 over bucks haha probably becos of the cosmetics la.

After shopping, went to meet dar cos he got nights out. went to hi hse and his mum was like staring at my shopping bags, haha i bet she must be thinking, "o.0 wow u bought so much stuff!" oh well, had fish n chips for dinner, apparently the shop has no pork chops becos it is halal shop.

hmmm thats all for now, going out to celebrate sara bdae today.

this is the pic i took with fiona cos we realised we nv taken any pics tgt b4 haha. n this place was outside female toilet lol

Dreadful exams over

2007-11-26T05:11:00.000-08:00

Yay!! exams over le!! finally pulled through it. our papers this sem are so difficult.. haiz... but anw, im jus glad its all over haha jus hope i can pass my biz law paper. hmm busy planning my post exams activities now. wanna go beach for a breather. i love going beach. so relaxing... and not forgeting to cycle along the beach all the way to changi. hmm.. wat else, swimming, tho i hate swimming but i wanna go play the lazy river and waves pool at chinese garden. haven been swimming with dar b4.. i wanna go picnic too haha. can prepare lots of food. But jus the two of us very boring. i shall go organise a picnic outing for my whole family and dar. Mayb can go sentosa :) Wow, i hav lots of plans. but for now, tmr playing halo, meeting fiona on wed to shop, then on thu celebrating sara's bdae. waiting for sat too, cant wait for dar to pop, happy that i can pin the rank for him. haha wonder if i can finish doing all the stuff i wanna do. i wanna increase my recipes collection during tis time too hee.

I should be content

2007-11-01T20:17:00.000-07:00

I could not stop myself and went to read her blog. Oh my.. im envious of her.. She is leading such a good life now. I know i should be content with what i have now, cos im alr very lucky. I have lead quite a good life since childhood, till now where i hav found happiness in my next phase of life. I should be content. and i will try to be... yea.. maybe the time isnt right now.. i must wait for the sake of long term considerations and not succumb to my selfish and immature thoughts. Im sure heaven has the reason for me to wait. I noe this may not make any sense to anyone, but jus let me ramble.. Im jus trying to mke myself not think abt it..

ok.. i must be sensible. right now, i should jus pia very very hard and finish my studies, get my degree and think no more of any other things. well exams coming, i wun hav time to think too much cos there isnt much time left to study!! tho answers and solutions are not given for the exam papers online. Sigh, wat crap.. how to do la like that!! argh....

All good things come to an end

2007-11-01T05:25:00.000-07:00

Well let me start from last sat, it was my first time cooking 2 dish 1 soup plus rice for Dar. It really aint easy for a beginner. I spent nearly 2 hours to prepare one lunch. wow.. by the time it is almost dinner le hee.. im still bad at cooking rice tho, cant gauge the amt of water to add. Cooked cabbage, egg and vercimilli soup, and steamed cod fish with shiitake mushroom.hmmm, at least my soup got the taste and fragrance, and pretty proud of my steamed fish:) hee. (tho carrots aint quite cooked for the veggie..)

After our lunch, we went to play pool.Yay. Im pretty addicted to pool now. Hav been watching a tw pool playing show, and i did leanr some stuff from it. Dar even said, "Sometimes im stunned by ur shots" haha cos i hit the balls at an angle. sometimes im shocked with the results as well, hmm.. perhaps it was sheer luck sometimes. hah

Had a very late dinner on sat, all becos of the late lunch. Had chocolatey crunch at swensons afterwhich. Wow it has been a long time since i go home late at night.

On sun, daddy let me drive his car to IMM. Went IMM, surprisingly, no mood for shopping. So we kept eating and eating haha. Not forgetting to visit the soft toys shop from which S*ra broke the toy last time when i went with her and sq. haha, well, i still see the toy there, but not the damaged one of cos.

hmmm... its thu again, how time flies. Hav been feeling super tired these few days.. hmm.. not feeling happy today, pretty down tho its the last day of sch for this week. but went home and saw my baby niece, and this cheered me up a bit. I carried her and saw her slp so peacefully in my arms... :)

Think i should go back to my mugging....

Communicating at the wrong frequency

Life without work

2007-06-25T21:14:00.000-07:00

Hmm... seems so much relaxed when u dun need to work hah. But at the same time, it can become quite boring.. hmph.. everyday has to think of sth to do haha. well.. im really so bored.....that i start blogging again. dun think anyone read my blog anymore haha.. wat a rusted blog. nvm jus for fun i guess ahah. lemme c.. today. i shall try to cook myself a good lunch. dunno how it will turn out to be.. and my room!! its in a total mess! gosh. i really dunno where to start cleaning from. Well, i got a cushion cover to make as well. it seems i do hav a lot of stuff to do. jus too lazy for everything haha. Jus waiting for my fre to come back from hk b4 we can go shopping together haha. yay! shall now go cook le... @~>~~

dance is my life, passion

2006-05-31T08:22:00.000-07:00

oo.... my blog has been pretty stagnant le.. sigh.. life has been really good for me. first of all, dance night.. oohooo dance night was once a dream.. truly, i dreamt of it a few times before we it really happened... wow.. n we did it.. we made dance night a success, at least tts wat we think. it is a success to us!!! but i still believe that it is really the bonds, friendship, joy, tears, the memories that made up the process that are important. i really n totally enjoyed myself despite the fact tt i really looked exhausted n stressed on that day of dance night. i enjoyed dancing with all my fellow mad frens! juniors! i would not hav pull thru it without the encouragement of all my fellow frens!

thru dance night, i really made lots of frens.. and it really touched me when my fellow dance partners and frens gave me words of encouragement whenever i lost faith in myself. my dance partners really had taken good care of me and showed me concern.

Hey nicholas, heres my msg for u: u hav been a really great dance partner. it was also our second time working together. in my card tt i gav u {which u lost it}, i mentioned that u r a great junior! at least to me! one of my fav junior, {haha i shouldnt be showing favouritism}. U really gave me lots of laughter n joy u noe.. like on stage during chair dance, once i c u n ur sunshine bright smile, it jus made me forget the fear n anxiety on stage, u made me break into a smile. ur smile is really amazing... {i think im getting mushy, haha} i nv blame u for ur mistake during matinee, nv. wat i wish for u is to learn from it, like i told u, performance is sometimes like that. such mistakes and errors may happen. u jus hav to get over it n stay confident on stage. be strong nicholas, i noe u r. u can trust me, i will forever keep the secret for u.

now, i guess almost everyone getting the withdrawal symtoms of not having dance prac... esp the j2s.. dance is like our common passion.. n m.a.d really forms a big part of the wonderful memories in my hc life. u guys in mad really rocks! u guys really gave me nice memories. whenever i felt sad, dancing will somehow brighten my day. and not forgetting my fellow mad frens who gave me encouragement.

i wanna thx michelle for being there to lend me a listening ear. always sharing my sorrows with me.. thats wat frens r for.. thx! hugs.. gonna miss u...

updates: ytd finally met up with feli n meelia!!! so so happiieee!!!!!!!!!!! miss u two la... shopping with u guys was really shiok man.. shopped like 7 hrs in a row.. shopped till we dropped n were all broke la... but yay! got the stuff i love n yearned.. we took neoprint n they were really cute!! made many funny faces. haha.. thx guys! u really rock my day.. im so happy i still hav u two ard.... shopping queens rule!!!

sister

2006-03-26T06:55:00.000-08:00

hmmm... recently, me wish to hav a sister really grew... well... at least my wish for a big bro more or less was fulfilled... but now i wish tt i had a sister... i can dress her up, tok to her abt gals stuff..one whom i cld confide in.. one whom i can express my happiness to.. tell her how happy im, wanna share with her all secrets... not all ur frens wan to hear abt all ur memories, happiness, secrets, feelings, sorrow..

my greatest wish, is hope i can share with my best best fren my happiness, my xinfu, secrets.. n i hope she can confide in me too.. so we can share n tok abt gals stuff... sigh.. pls make my wish come true

our memories

2006-02-09T07:17:00.000-08:00

trust - a big word. hard to promise, difficult to keep. but it is one important thing to keep people bonded.

the flow of thoughts can lead one person to no where. it'll make one think a lot, and think about unnecessary stuff..

We humans, wan to be selfish and yet cant, cos our conscience tell us we shouldnt.

Nevertheless, i will fulfil the word, try not to let flow of thoughts take control over me, n find a balance between self-conscience and selfishness..

it is a box, which is filled with memories.. :) stars which mark the start, hearts which extend the feeling, image which brings memories (:

Amazed!

2006-01-24T06:09:00.000-08:00

oh man! gotta to noe abt some interesting big big news!! wow! oh man! im darn amazed! shocked! oh my.. but still.. i feel happy for the person.. :D hehehehehehehhehhahhahahaha.. wish the person luck! must rmb to follow ur heart k!! be brave! to make the first step!! must listen to ur heart! dun make urself regret! jia you!

touching moments amidst depression

2006-01-24T05:52:00.000-08:00

today, quite a depressing day.. made a casual comment n got attituded... sigh.. anyway, used to it le... fac dance.. hmm.. not one single person turned up to learn the dance. onli got my two juniors to come n gave me moral support... i got really depressed and demoralised.. couldn't control myself no more.. but still, im really grateful to my juniors who turned up for fac dance.. they learned the dance at a price of having to skip chem lessons.. im really quite touched.. this is enough for me to forget my depression and to cheer myself up.. Thanks so much juniors!! owe u all this!! without u all today, the fac dance session would hav been a total failure. and thx to all those ppl who had shown me concern and support today: thx to those who gav me a pat on the shoulder, even tho it was jus a pat, it is enough to push me on. thx xun, for showing up and cheering us on and helping us.. hope gareth can relax abit and dun get so stressed up.. u dun owe us this.. we ought to do it right for u.

although today can be depressing day, i still find myself lucky to be able to experience such concern and heart-warming events..

past memories

2006-01-12T04:57:00.000-08:00

wow.. looking back.. great memories.. looked thru the photos n they really bring back memories.. miss the times when our class is still one class... the times we had stj, jts with our seniors.. the outings we had... sigh.. now, it is no longer the way it used to be.... mayb we had known too much stuff tt we shouldnt know.. sigh.. now.. wat can we do? nth.. miss the times during dance, esp cucumbers!!! miss u guys! the cucumberians!!!! cucumbers rocks man!! even tho we were struggling at tt time, but i still love the times when we had to stay till 9 sth in sch to prac...

well, now i can onli look thru the pics, n think abt the memories...

respect

2006-01-05T06:56:00.000-08:00

getting more n more stressed up... feelings seems to bottle up in my heart n i really need to release it somewhere... complicated feeling.. wonder who i can talk to who will understand my problems. at least should show me some respect.. at least should be less hostile to me.. since im given the responsibility n duty, u should giv me the respect i deserve... its so hard to be the middle person. i cant be tear apart btw teacher n students u noe... i got to answer to both... its not easy at all.. should think for others.. not onli for urself.. stop being so selfish n self-centered... our duty is to bring everyone together... not to tear all of us apart... we hav enough of ppl full of their own opinions. n i had bear enough of ur "wonderful" opinions.. i hav to be strong n confident dealing with u all.. n I WILL.. i wont let u put me down no matter how good u think u r..

finally vented my anger... but i still feel inferior... i dunno who to trust.. i dunno who still believes in me.. in fact.. i need assurance.. i need some encouragement to keep me going.. i swear i hav been trying my best.. but i dunno how ppl view me.. hav i really done my job? m i cut out for my duty? m i of any help or use? i jus wanna meet ppl expectations.. i dun wanna fail anyone.. i noe i dun hav the exp, i dun hav the capabilities.. but since i hav been given the job so unexpectedly, i really cant fail anyone.. even tho i noe there r ppl out there who r much better than me in this area...

i jus wish i can pull thru this..

manicure

2005-12-11T05:42:00.000-08:00

finally got to go out with my family today... its great to be outside.. jus that my mum had to keep paying cos i kept buying.. haha... cant wait to go on a shopping spree with my mum for new yr clothes.. i must really get the type that i will wear after wearing it during cny.. wont let it rot in my wardrobe... i bought another accessories for my hp again.. haha.. it is a pink angel.. realised i really love angels.. shall start collecting stuff related to angels.. got back home, nth better to do.. sigh.. bored... tried to do french manicure.. wow.. although it wasnt very perfect, but looks nice to me..haha.. did my finger n toe nails.. wow.. i spent hrs doing it.. later tonight, i shall get down to do some work..

stop those tears

2005-12-01T05:20:00.000-08:00

one extremely effective way to stop your tears:

listen to fish leong's song--- Zhong Jian
it somehow sets u in a trance.. amazing.. stop u from crying immediately...your mind goes blank..

class chalet::hectic dance life::

2005-11-15T14:13:00.000-08:00

right, haven really got any time to sit down n blog on the class chalet.. sigh.. has been so busy ever since i returned from chalet... seems like it has been the most tiring chalet i hav been to although we din really get to do anything except for cooping up in the room.. sigh... right.. luckily the bbq was ok.. managed to keep the fire going on.. but dunno y a couple of ppl got stomachache after tt... cant imagine i onli slept for 2 hrs.. well, becos of the pathetic 2 hrs of slp tt contributed to my unrecoverable fatigue for the next few days.... however, reallly had fun the first night as we play games like POLAR BEAR together as a big group... dotz.. the game din really work as how can ppl wish tt they r dead when u r supposed to protec urself!! haha lol..... finally got to play halo 2.. wow.. finally break thru to where we had stopped the other time.. in the end, still decided to go for night cycling but amazingly, we paid 15 bucks to go n eat mac in the middle of the night... n earned lots of mosquito bites.. sigh... one time is enuff.. phew.. would rather stay in rooom n "blow air con" ...hah...

my fatigue really need a few days to recover... sigh... had been busy training for the upcoming dance comp.. like the sat one, sigh... i dun understand y must we reveal n wear skimpy clothes which i dun understand y those tube tobs n bikini dun fall when they shoke n danced! sex sells man.... tsk tsk... we can nv reach tt state unless we r willing to be wild n sexy???!!!???? we r like extremely extremely decent compared to them....

right, we lost two comp in a row!!!!! :'( wat crap... n for some crappy comp like the qing jie n lu se comp, we can even lost it!!!! argh!!! i cant believe it!! n immediately after tt comp we went for a12 concert.. wow.. cool boy band entropy!! hahah!! n someone who attracts so much attn from the audience ah...oh anw, he got such a diehard fan ma.. no wonder...

lets not do this dance anymore.. sian.. had been doing for tons n tons, millions of times..

My dream as a artiste?

2005-11-07T20:46:00.000-08:00

hmm... my teacher asked me this question ytd: Do you want to be a singer or artiste? i thought about it deeply, and i finally got my answer.. the answer from my heart. i really dun wanna ba one.. even though i may hav the chance(according to my teacher) but seriously i think i 100% dun hav chance one la.... no looks, no potential, no good voice.. bla bla... yupz.. anyway, i really prefer a simple life, instead of making it big n making a name for myself... if i really wanna grab the chance, i would either make it super big!!! till im really famous!! else i would rather not choose the path at all... i wont wan to be one singer who jus record one album n disappear..
and i m finally clear about my dream! my dream is not to be a singer, but instead, my dream is to stand on stage n sing n perform.

Kbox outing!

2005-11-04T23:05:00.000-08:00

Wow, spent 2 hrs recording the stupid song for clean n green... lyrics are like damn lame... -.-" so funny.... gave huiyan to sing everything.. but sobz.... i got forced to sing the "na na na na, dun phunk with my heart part.." lame.... cant stand my own voice... GROSS!!!!! argh.. anyway, finally got the clean n green thing settled.. had been bugging me for months le.. phew.. feel so relieved now..

went kbox with kegan, dave, shell, sua... woo hoo... super fun!! sang tons of duet songs together, all gay n les together hahaha... but our harmonising part really not bad ah!!! cool!! everyone of them hav their own strengths n talents, some hav a nice good voice, some hav bright voice! some hav super sweet voice!! wow.. all are talents man.. well, me n shell kept savaging at the bowls of nuts(bleah.... we din hav lunch lor, those nuts are our lunch) sang all the way till 9 pm. the ppl din even care to come n ask us to pay la... ate dinner at 9 sth.. wow..

cant wait for the a12 concert, cos sua, xun, kenneth are performing!! they r singing in a boy band!! wow!! jus cant wait to c them perform!!

reached home super late n got really tipped off by my mum.. locked myself up till morn... someone was in the same state as me too.. i realised..

jay's new album

2005-11-02T21:22:00.000-08:00

hmmm.. well jay's new album is out.. n well, im quite impressed with it.. though im not really a great fan of his, but m really impressed.. really love the lyrics of this particular song.. so wen xin!! how great it would be if someone sing tt to me..haha... right.. but after watching ye qu MV, was really touched... almost to tears ba.. or mayb im an overly emotional person.. always tearing for nth.. oopss... but still, ye qu sounds really really nice!! omg, i guess it will be my fav song in his album ba..

Halloween cum fac outing

2005-10-28T22:05:00.000-07:00

ytd went for halloween along with sj, michelle, sua ning, kegan, david. went for dinner at the cosy place!!! but i feel really guilty cos we forgot to ask david along for dinner!! paiseh... had a great great great and wonderful and splendid time chatting, gossiping, eating at curry wok!! u guys are really great!!!!! real fun!! real cool! real spastic!! hahah jking... yea, dun forget our promise!! ;) must go for our grp outing to kbox!!! went back to sch for halloween. went all crazy at the dance floor. haunted hse was pretty exciting hahaha, cant stop laughing and screaming.. sua is really funny!! haunted tour was really zai!! xun yu!! it was really a success!!! council really did a great job!! and i had lots and lots of fun with michelle, sj, and sua!!!

dunno y but we become closer to each other.. at least tt is wat i think.. realise tt david n sua are really really very sweet guys!!! sj, dun be jealous hor.. im jus purely praising my frens ;), u r still the sweetest! hahaha... burr.... goosebumps... crashed ares fac outing today and had a great tok with david during the journey there..pretty worried for him, he must really really be optimistic... me michelle sua are all gonna back u up david! we will giv u all our support.. dun hesitate to come and tok to us abt ur troubles k!! david and sua were really sweet la, came to see me n michelle off when we were boarding the bus.. we were so touched!!!!!

dun forget our promise to go kbox!! cant wait for it!!!

open hse

2005-10-21T23:59:00.000-07:00

imagine after dancing for more than 6 hrs the day b4 and slept for 6 hrs, and had to dance nonstop today! really on the verge of collapsing in the morn.. but after being busy setting up our booths, my fatigue wore away.. think MAD really got the spirit of meeting the theme of tis yr's open hse: NONSTOP.. we really danced all day long today... really tiring but still, i think we all had fun throughout... i felt quite eager to perform, to showcase our dance in front of all the visitors..

went out for dinner along with kegan, michelle and germ.. but we all were really exhausted.. yea... i agree, had a nice time chatting with u, kegan.. din noe u were such ... ahem... sentimental?? hmm.. dunno how to describe la.. hahha...

hmmmm... i wonder... wat happened to da wei and his A_ _ _ _ ytd.. cant imagine he is so SWEET!!!!! so thoughtful!!! heheh...wish that he can be xin fu.. haha :)

well, i shall go plan a mad outing to kbox!! haha!!! pretty excited abt it..

2 months

2005-10-19T23:43:00.000-07:00

hmm... quite a happy and light hearted day today.. unlike ytd.. sigh.. really had a bad day ytd, worrying abt results and all.. but today, i was really shocked at my phy results! din expect to get that grade.. it's like a miracle.. haha.. yea.. but im contented le.. dun hav to compare with others. well, overall, at least i managed to improve as compared to bt. pia-ing for op the whole morn.. but luckily the speech turned out to be fine.. phew.. had been worrying the whole morn.. hopefully the actual day can also be so smooth ba.. right.. really hav to revamp our project.... really got dissected by CKC. hmm.. headache!!

really relieved after pw and had great fun kicking chapteh with germ.. but too bad im so lousy and had a great and embarrased fall.... sigh... sniff...

wa.. really busy today. ran to and fro from dance room to central plaza so many times.. well, rehearsal was a bit screwed but teacher still praised our dance! so well haha.. happy happy!! shalala!! but im like super exhausted now.. tmr there's still a long day.... going to be another long and tiring day.. we must all pia thru this open hse k!! make it a great great success!!!! jia you!!!

argh.. backache all over... wanna slp....zzzzzzzz............... nitez nitez....

prepare for open hse

2005-10-17T23:49:00.000-07:00

wow... it has been quite some time since i blog le.. hmmm... been really busy lately... busy preparing for all sorts of stuff for open hse.. been quite ambitious i admit.. but i really want to do it well.. for the sake and name of MAD... i really hope that it will turn out well... in line with open hse still hav to rush for pw.. sigh.... cant really hav much rest recently.... im jus looking forward to the class chalet ba.. or else, the grp chalet.. sigh... jus wanna relax a bit.. tho competitions are coming!!!! hav to pia as well.... must win!!!

Exams Over!!

2005-10-07T21:17:00.000-07:00

Finally!!! the long awaited freedom is here!!! exams are finally over!!!! the irritating f math paper is jus a killer... make me study for nth..... sigh.. watched corpse bride today... hmm.. not as bad as wat others think la.. not as lame... quite touching actually... i still think he should be with victoria la...... well.. there r stilll a series of other shows i wanna watch!!!!! hav to save up!!!! wanna watch that cuti cute chicken with green specs.. haha.. speaking of which... i should change my specs soon... shall get some exotic colours hahah....
sigh.... i hav absolutely no idea wat to buy...no reallly nice cds to buy anyway..
cant wait for the lists of fun activities coming along the way.. jus like wat germ said, cant wait to dance too!!!but y visit me now???!!!!?? argh... sian....wtv...

seems a mess

2005-08-29T22:09:00.000-07:00

hmmm... seems like i hav loads to do.... sigh... promos is like 5 wks away.. ==> i shall start piaing today.... yes... hmmm.... hav to come up with a fac dance too... i promise i will do my very best n come up with the coolest dance, n nv let other ppl look down on athena again... besides, still hav to prepare for my upcoming singing performance... hmm.. really hav to train up my voice and prepare my costume... right.. then back to study again.... after that, pw..... -.-
argh.. just wish that promos can be over soon... and i really hav to do well this time... so hav to pia... yes.. just bought a piggy today.. yay.. super cute.... shall call her Chien... yay.. so cute...

== girl power == gals on top ==

class outing vs pressure

2005-08-12T23:51:00.000-07:00

hmm.. long time nv blog... nth much to blog anyway... lemme c... well... right.. just had class outing two days ago, on wed.. amidst the hectic school life, having such a class party really does make one feel relaxed... away from tutorials and other cca commitments and stress.. had a wonderful time n at least i managed to forget abt all my problems and stress during the party. finally managed to play halo 2 since last time i missed the chance to play it.. super nice... i really enjoy playing halo, once i start on it, i just cant stop... tho i onli get to play it onli once or twice per yr..

had been trying to find my breathing space amidst the commitments i hav in sch.. i no longer hav personal time.. faced lots of stress regarding my duties... a bit pressurized... demoralised n all... luckily i talked to shengqi abt it... at least i let out my stress.. felt better after telling someone else.. but still, i dun think i hav let it all out yet.. i cant really relate my problems.. just so complicated... dun think anyone can understand tho..

nonetheless... i can pretend this stress does not exist.. mayb i should...
i believe there is always sunshine after the rain....
rainbow and hopes after a storm..

ai yi ge ren yuan lai bu yi

2005-08-10T00:04:00.000-07:00

::::ai4 yi2 ge4 ren2 yuan2 lai2 bu4 rong2 yi4::::

everyone has their rights to like someone.... everyone has their rights to fall in love... anyone... as long as they dun hurt or harm or trouble other people...
stop the stupid tricks.. they can hurt people's feelings...
dan lian always has been hard... becos the consequences are expected to be always the same...

Songs make wonders

2005-07-30T22:56:00.000-07:00

Yesterday had arts fest n yay, after weeks n months of practices n hard work, we finally improved our dance and glad that we had put up a satisfying performance last nite(according to seniors n frens..) was super hyper last nite n it feels great to hav a mini gathering with sec sch frens. really miss all of u out there.. *winks* n thanx to all those frens who came n supported.. n the flowers too.. thx a lot!!!!!! they are really lovely... :) i hope they wont die off so soon, i still want to admire them longer..
i wonder if it becos of the song sung by pin guan or sth else, but the song is really touching, at least according to me, that touches me deeply that i cried.... really amazed at how songs can stir up feelings in one person.
today went out n saw sth really nice n sweet... i hav never seen it before since the last time i saw it in japan disney land. i bought one of those n i still hav it. it is "beauty n the beast". today after i saw it, i was really fascinated and really wish i could hav one. ---trousselier---- the one with "someday my prince will come" is super nice, but too bad it is sold out.

nothing much

2005-07-28T22:53:00.000-07:00

hmmmm.... sianz... recently got not much stuff to blog.... even if i hav sth to blog, i also hav no time to do so.. let me think, rite, last week's performance at tchs... think our performance was not very good... very messy i think.. but partly becos of the constraints of the small size of the stage.. almost fell of the stage le... that day we spent a long long time preparing, tying hair, make up n stuff n it was a bit chaotic n messy... pretty busy cos hav to help many ppl make up.. but i really enjoy doing it.... seeing my work of beautifying everyone.. i got a sense of satisfaction. but i certainly hav no idea of wat to do to my own appearance.... this is the same logic as cooking... the person cooking for eveyone would not hav the appetite to eat her own cooking.. last fri it was pretty chaotic over tchs side.. dunno wat to do n we had no help from any teacher.. i had to run so many times up n down la... super busy on that day.. but luckily we still managed to put up with our performance n had a great deal of time eating dinner, taking photos together.. as well as our supper after the performance.. hehe.. yay, went to eat macs n chatted a great deal on scandals haha.... rite.. tmr, is arts fest performance.. still dunno wat accessories to wear tho.. shall go dig n search later.. really hope we can put up a great show tmr n hav fun!!!!

Shopping day

2005-07-17T23:24:00.000-07:00

in morning, still having a tiring n sleepy time, cos we hav to wake up super early to do pw... and someone still arrive so late.... even miss the station.. my god.... tsk tsk.... anyway, struggling thru the whole morn but still managed to complete something for pw... yays... feeling a great deal of satisfaction... at least we cared to do sth for pw... well, i just spent my morn coughing n whispering in the onli remaining squeaky n wierd voice of mine... oh my, first time i feel so tired of talking.... always wanted to hav a feel how losing my voice is like, n now, i had a feel of it le... terrible.... but nonetheless, still managed to hav a good time shopping for costume.. nv had such an enjoyable shopping spree.. time check time check.... we seem to be rushing ard to get our costumes but still enjoyed ourselves... although our wallets may seem empty la, but still like the feeling of trying clothes n buying n trying n buying.... ahahha, at least now i understand the feeling of trying for the sake of trying n not buying it.. haha... the GSS, yes, love it man, everywhere in orchard are having sale!!!!!! i feel so happy cos i got my clothes all at great discounts!!!!!! oohhooo!!!! shuang!!!! but really had a hard time choosing cosmetics though.... sigh.. still lousy at it.... saw the food fest at taka, and all the food is really tempting!!! too bad im sick n cant taste them..
i swear i will go there again next wk eat to my fill!!!!!!!! i want my mango ice n ice cream!!!!! i will go n get it!!!!! well, one happy day passed like this, and a terrible week is coming.. cross my fingers and i hope i can pull thru it..... pls, help me....wish me luck..... ;)

sick

2005-07-16T22:01:00.000-07:00

realised my immune system is getting weaker n weaker... i didnt hav to go c doc for like one whole year for the previous years, but recently, i hav to go c the doc for a few times in a year... it really feels bad being sick.. despite having mc to miss sch la, but really, i hate vomitting... yucks.... n now, worst, suddenly lost my voice.. n i cant tok for now... cant sing too!!! sad... miss singing.... and i just cant stop coughing... :( medicine tastes really bad too... see, i hav a whole long list y being sick is so bad... now, piaing for all the dances, n i really miss the times when cucumbers got together n prac dancing like mad... now, it is time for us to pia again.. oohhoo... very shuang, dancing till we all are tired n breatheless n take taxis home to avoid being scolded by my mum.. haha.... very tired, but at the same time, very shuang.... hope we can pull thru it this time.... *cross fingers* just watched parent trap, still as entertaining after watching it for dunnno how many times.. and now, it is time for pw again... sigh..

initial d

2005-07-09T00:54:00.000-07:00

rite.. dun wanna tok abt my exp with my pres job.. sigh..... dun think i did a gd job though.. anyway.. i need confidence, like guan said.... i need it... bathe.. yes.. it was fun... haha.... my dear les, u noe wat i mean.. haha.. yes, manage to watch initial d finally!!!!! but was seated at the first row la.... oh man.. but nvm, hav a closer view of edison chen haha.... he is so shuai!!!!!! so cool!!!!!! so got char... cool n cute n sian diao jay, haha.... so dai n cute.... n manyly shawn yue.. with his moustache... nice n gd movie..... with all the cool high speed, fast-paced shots of car racing.... exciting.... yay, celebrated yashu's bdae... n had great time bonding with all my frens.... meeting feli tmr too!!!! yes... so happy.....

Toast to end of bt

2005-07-06T22:43:00.000-07:00

yay yayayayaya!!!!!!!!! so happieeeeeeee!!!!!!!! it is end of blocks!!!!!!! yoo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.... today was the last paper, n we cant wait for it to be over... n poof!!!!!!!!! it is over now!!!!!!! was like laughing to myself during the paper, cant even do la... just waiting time to pass... but super tired though, just wished i could just slump on the table n sleep..... write till my knuckles hurt too la.... rite, it is over!!!!!!!! flew out of sch asap.. haha..... cant really decide wat to do immediately after we gained freedom.... but today is like argh... bad but happy day haha.. went ard the whole place n things cropped up n all... like delifrance under renovation la, pizza hut offer onli at limited times la.... bla bla...n we ended up eating at fisherios.... n yet, they onli gav me a fork to eat my fish n chips.... ahyo..... y today so many things crop up one... all thanks to dear sara for exchanging her cutlery set with me.... thx hor for being so nice to me :) else i would take an even longer time to eat my fish n chips..... hehe.... felt so gd to hav a meal with my frens!!!!!!! i feel so xin fu... haha.... n we toasted to the end of blocks too!!! yiipppee!!!!!! hmmm.... after eating, went kbox with germ again..... rite... again... same place, same time, same situation, same room, almost the same songs..... haha... really had a great great time singing.... trying to imitate the singers n harmonising n all...so fun.... n germ: u r really good!!!!! u are really pro at imitating la, unlike me, so im not laughing becos u sound awful la, im laughing becos im impressed n amused by ur imitation, but u sound really nice...
yup, normally kbox qiao zha our money, but today we gained sth ahaha.. we sang for almost 5 hrs when we r actually onli given 3 hrs!!! yesh!! really had fun, though it was freezing inside the room... both of us having spasmodic contractions n jittering teeth le...... but wow..... sang lots n lots of songs that we normally dun get to sing... n we got our zhu da ge, each of us hav three zhu da ge... n got one kua dao he zhuo song hehe.... u all got to hear one day haha.... shall not tell u all wat songs they r just yet... each of us hav to find 6 more songs to come up with an album hahaha......
hmm.... now it is time for slacking....... watched jue dui superstar... hmmm... both sara's n my idols sang tonite.... hmm.... think sara's idol hav high chance, he sang very well..... yay, my idol got the second highest.. not bad...:) he sang very well too!!!!!hahaha... hope he gets in!!!!!! *cross fingers*
rite now, after blocks le, hav to pia for jap, pia for dance n dance n dance n dance... argh....rite now it is like tt:
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argh... sigh.... am i going to survive under the stress???

Within 1000 words

2005-07-01T23:30:00.000-07:00

...sen no kotoba

all memories among the white plains...

Small break from bt

2005-07-01T22:31:00.000-07:00

phew..... 4/5 of the blocks is over.... now left f maths..... think i will take a break for today... start piaing tmr!!!!!!!! yes.. hmm... i dun wanna think abt maths any more... im really gonna flunk it.. anyways... went to eat waffle with sq, sara, germ,, wq, jan..... yes.... felt so gd, hav not go out n eat a meal with them for ages le... had reallly a good time chatting n laughing together... n we all now know the biggest secret of all mwhahahah.... someone is a potential les... mwhahaha....., right, having withdrawal symptoms from not singing for ages le.... so we went singing at kbox!!! ddamn ex la.... n somemore they tried to cheat our money also.... pissed...but we had time biaoing the high notes although my voice broke during most of the time... sigh....hmm.... so happy i got sara n sq to go home with me.... yea... dun need to go home alone again.....

loser me

2005-06-16T23:51:00.000-07:00

went back to sch again for dance prac.... sigh.... tired!!!!!!! my legs r breaking!!!!! argh.....
went for singing class after tt.... mm.... bad once again... after weeks n weeks of prac, i still can sing correctly.... singing may seem an easy task for others but not for me i guess..... loser me..... actually cried over this kind of thing..... but i just cant helped it.... was already controlling myself a lot le when i was there and on the bus......teacher was right about me exploding right inside me.... reached home n i really cant stand it and i let it all out..... felt much better after that... but just not in the mood... mm... dun even feel like eating rice for dinner... worst still, im really stuck at physics.... very very slow progress... tmr hav to start to pia again...
but nonetheless, im still grateful to my teacher.... every wk also tried all sorts of ways to help me overcome my fears, n yet im still so lousy.... loser me... hmmm.... quite touched abt his words b4 we left... :thx for having faith in me n thx for believing in me that i can do it.... no matter how hard it may seem, or how long i may take, i wont giv up trying n striving, as long as u dun giv up hopes on me....

President of MAD

2005-06-14T14:54:00.000-07:00

yayz, was so happy ytd when i got the news!!!!! super shocked as well.... wow, i would nv have expected this!!!!!! not even in my dreams.... i will hav to work hard from now onwards....sigh... the seniors hav not really step down n yet i hav tons n tons of work to do le..... oh man, feel quite lost at the moment but i guess i will take things slowly n steadily.... i will figure things out somehow.... hmm..... mum like not very happy for me when she heard the news leh... sigh... i was so happy n hope that my parents will be proud of me too.. hah.. but just the opposite, they dun even feel anything for my gd news. anyway, there is still a long long journey ahead of me n i must persevere on.... i will hav to fulfil my duties like wat i had i promised.
n thx to all of my frens who had encouraged me on for the interview, u all gave me a lot of support n u all believed in me.. thx so much, esp to my seniors, thx for having faith in me n entrusting the responsibilities to me. i will not let u all down. i will let MAD fa yang guang da......
hmm..... rite... im slacking now again.... hmm.. taking a break.... my whole body aching like hell.....quite hard to keep my body straight up for long.... ouch..... guess i need a massage chair now... :p okz, after resting, shall get back to work now...

random

2005-06-12T22:32:00.000-07:00

hmm... ytd watched 2 movies in one day.. wow...watched premonition which was recommended by sara.. hmm... think compared to the previous korean horror movie, tis one is not as scary as tt one... but both equally mysterious(meaning dunno wat is going on)... ahh.... but tis movie still had one super scary moment which i still rmb till now n almost couldnt slp last nite becos of tt scene..hmm... dunno if i got hearing prob but i really heard things in the cinema tt seemed too real for it to come from the movie.... eeeee.........
at nite, so happy!!!!!!!! cos got my sassy girlfriend again. n i watched it for umpteen times but still not sick of it..wat a funny, humorous n yet romamtic n sad movie..... really love the song.. hmm... i shall declare tt i hav found my fav song.... i believe....i believe too.... i believe ppl from the future can visit our world, n they might be just among us... i believe i can meet one too....one day....
hmm..... tmr will be exco interview.... sigh....... im scared!!!! my very first interview... i dunno wat to do..... wat shuld i do???? wat can i do???? wat i cant do???? wat i shuld not do????? wat will happen tmr??? wat will they ask me tmr?????wat.........................??????????????????ahhhhh.... n tmr kay's dance..... im scared too........ i will be scolded again....... i will be....argh........tis is scarier than watching horror movie.........

nightmare

2005-06-10T17:47:00.000-07:00

woa... terrible..... had a terrible nightmare ytd nite... me, a criminal??? oh man, got chased ard the whole building by the cops n ghosts!!!!!???!! @#$@%$# hiding n running, sliding n climbing here n there....tiring.. scary... n i woke up, sweating all over!!!!!!! argh.... hardly slept n rest at all..... kept running the whole nite......

hmph.... sianz..... cooped up at home all day again..... but tried to finish some chem le.. phew... hope i still can catch up with my timetable.... *cross fingers*

love::luv::

2005-06-10T16:38:00.000-07:00

Open your eyes to love

2005-06-10T16:33:00.000-07:00

You've been searching the world to find true love
Looking in all the wrong places
When all the times you have been blind to know
Its plain as the nose on your faces.
its here, its now
open your eyes to see it
Right here,
Right now
Open your eyes to love
You've been down on your-self thinking somethings are wrong
You have wondered why love has never found you
You know its been here all along
If only you look around you
Its here, Its now
Open your eyes and see it
Right here, Right now
Open your eyes to love
Love has been right by your side
So close that you couldnt see
If love could speak, it would shout to the sky
I've always been here
I always will be here
Im here, Im now.
Open your eyes and see
Right here, Right now
Open your eyes to love
Open your eyes to love
Open your heart to love

inspirations::::::

2005-06-09T21:22:00.000-07:00

yess!!!!!!!!! i must inspire myself again!!!!!!!!!im slacking again these few days..... sigh... i must pia!!!!!! reaching sci tuts le... yes.. got some progress le.. at least...ok... tmr onwards i will pia n pia!!!!!!! finish up the sciences!!!!!!!!!!!!! i must!!!!!! PIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!cannot slack anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! control!!!!!!!!! CONTROL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Argh!!!!!!!!
i can do it!!!! i can survive thru this!!!!!!!!!!!! i will pass my block test!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can do it!!!!!!!!!!!!

contented

2005-06-09T21:08:00.000-07:00

amazing...... tis is really what dreams are made of... still rmb when i was young, i really wish n day dream all day that one day i could dance n perform on stage, or stand on stage n sing... hmm.... n now.. i cant believe it... my dreams r slowly coming true... firstly...my dream of dancing n performing on stage actually came true le!! i really cant believe me, one who has no dance bg, could actually perform on stage.. regarding singing... im working towards my dream rite now... really hav to thank my mum for the support n finance help to train me in my singing....dunno y but my teacher really had high hopes on me n chosen me as his student.. hmm... but i guess i will disappoint him one day.... im not born a singer... so lousy n all....niang sang super duper well today.. she is like WOW!!!! im impressed!!!! teacher was impressed too!!! niang is really one born performer!! can sing, can dance, etc.. so many talents... wow.. when can i ever sing like niang???when i can i ever reach her pitch?? hmph... doubt there wont be a day...i must work hard!!!!!! i must train!!!!!! i, will still be me.. me... my own style... sigh....
but anyways... dreams really do come true.... i will.. continue to strive towards my goals n dreams!!!!

random

2005-06-08T23:53:00.000-07:00

ytd just had our class outing.. sigh.. -.- class outing?? with onli 9 ppl?? haha anyway.. still had fun though.. cant believe that i had skipped my breakfast for the first time!!!!! i broke my principle of eating breakfast everyday!!!!! rite... skipped my breakfast to rush out of the hse but end up reaching there half n hour earlier... -.-
we had lunch together.. haha.. hav not eaten macs for long long time le.. ate happy meal!! haha!! n got a super cool n fun stamp!!!!! so happy!!! hmm.. but think im going to get the mac music cd too... haha... shall eat macs another day.. then we went for bowling..after that went for a movie.. haha.. madagascar.. lame n funny n no point(just like wat desmond said) but still had a great time laughing in the cinema.. love the part with the wilson volleyball n fire starting part.. reminds me of the movie "castaway".. so funny...later went to play arcade n it turns out to be a family outing again with niang, nanny, gor, me..ahh.. my basketball throwing skills deproved so much!!!!!! so lousy.... later went for dinner n shopped ard northpoint with gor cos niang n nanny abandoned me cos im slow at eating!!!!!!! :'( sniff..

today got a new tv table... erm... dad loved it a lot.. but i think it is not as nice.... looks a bit cheapo though..
hmm.. shuld i go for the chalet???? can i manage my studies?? or shuld i go for a break??? ahhhhh!!!!! so stressed up by studies now.... im worried leh... shuld i go?????

sigh.. got cold sore.. sad.. hate it.. so painful la... n the medicine is so gross!!!! yucks... i better not taste anymore...

what dreams are made of 2

2005-06-08T22:42:00.000-07:00

"What Dreams Are Made Of"
Have you ever seen such a beautiful night?
I could almost kiss the stars for shining so bright
When i see you smiling, I go oh oh oh
i would never want to miss this
cuz in my heart i know what this is
This is what dreams are made of
This is what dreams are made of
I've got somewhere i belong
I've got somebody to love
This is what dreams are made of
Have you ever wondered what life is about?
You could search the world and never figure it out
you don't have to sail the oceans
happiness is no mystery
it's here now it's you and me
Yesterday my life was duller
Now everything's technicolor
This is what dreams
This is what dreams are made of
This is what dreams are made of
I've got somewhere i belong
I've got somebody to love
This is what dreams are made of

mayb im tired

2005-06-06T16:54:00.000-07:00

mayb im tired..... mayb im sick....i dun wanna think... i dun wanna think anymore.... even if it sets me thinking...i dun wanna feel....

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

shopping trip

2005-06-05T23:53:00.000-07:00

happy today... :) went out shopping with mommie today!! bet she spent really really a lot.. bought two pairs of shoes. as for me, she got me 2 blouses, new earrings, a pair of damn ex pants n bracelet... wow!! nv shopped till so shuang nowadays. but i guess i will not shop again for quite some time.... must save up a bit.. :p
rite.. yayz... quite happy tt we got to eat dessert today as a family(but excluding boy boy... he sad ah... always got left out) hav nv been spending time with my family... sigh...went to eat hong kong traditional dessert... not very nice though... i still miss the crystal jade's mango dessert!!!! i must go back there n eat it again..
hmm... so i dun look pale for today's ktv class ah... haha.. for the first time... n niang: U R REALI GOING TO GET ME KILLED TIS TIME!!!!!!!!!!
went home after ktv, sianz..... just dun feel like doing anything. just lie there.... my mum even think that i got some problems la...... -.-

frens forever??

2005-06-04T23:56:00.000-07:00

*sniff.....* i tried to do my part liao.... it seemed wierd.. y cant we tok like wat we used to... sigh.. does distance really make a diff??? sniff.... i dun wish to lose my best fren leh...... :(
i really really wish us to stay close like in the past..... but it seemed like i dun hav much to tok to her....how...
n my pri sch frens too... sigh... we all went our separate ways le...... :(
wat can i do????

Suteki da ne

2005-06-04T13:34:00.000-07:00

:::::Suteki da ne:::::
My heart was swimming
in words gathered by the wind.
My voive bounded
into a cloud-carried tomorrow.

My heart trembled
in the moon-swayed mirror.
Soft tears,
spilled with a stream of stars.

Words halted by wind are
a gentle illusion.
A tomorrow torn by clouds is
the voice of a distant place.

My heart that had been
in a moon-blurred mirror that flowed,
Those stars that trembled and spilled
cannot hide my tears.

My dream of your face,
that i softly touch,
melts in the morning.

PIA

2005-06-04T00:01:00.000-07:00

yess!!!!!!!!!! tmr must start to pia for my tutorials!!!!!!! mUsT MuSt MUST mUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i must pia!!!!!!!!! must control!!!!!!!!!!!! must not fall asleep!!!!!!!! must not watch tv!!!!!!!!!!!! must not slack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n i must not be lazy to go for my jap class!!!!!!!!yes!!! i will work hard!!!!!!!

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thinking of the past

2005-06-03T22:31:00.000-07:00

was flipping thru my photo album n looking at all the photos... hmm.... really brings back memories.... haha.. really miss all my old frens leh... must really ask them out one day during the hols.. really miss my frens leh...
n realise one more thing... my hairstyle had really changed many times throughout these few yrs.. haha...yes, n now im thinking of my next hairstyle... how should it be??? must try sth different again haha...
rite now... hmm.... thinking.. shuld i really become a fac dance ic?? i dunno if i can teach ppl dance leh... but think it will be quite fun to lead the ppl in the dance... hmm.... die liao... how am i going to survive thru the interview n audition!!!!!!!!! 2 interviews coming up... die... wat m i going to do???????
it is onli the first wk of hols n the tidbits at home are already depleting soon!!!! oh man..... hav to stock up new supplies..
and it is a friday nite!!! y is everyone asleep already????? hmm... mayb i shuld learn from them n try to slp earlier...

not me not i

2005-06-03T00:06:00.000-07:00

"Not Me, Not I"
You mixed me up for someone
Who'd fall apart without you
Yeah you broke my heart for the first time
But I'll get over that too
It's hard to find the reasons
Who can see the rhyme?
I guess that we where seasons out of time I guess you didn't know me
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, no not me, not I
The story goes on without you
And there's got to be another ending
But yeah you broke my heart it won't be the last time
But I'll get over them too
As a new door opens we close the ones behind
And if you search your soul I know you'll find
You never really knew me
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, not I, not I
All you said to me
All you promised me
All the mystery never did believe
No I never cry no I never not me not I
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not I, I won't cry
No not me, not I, not I, Not I
No not me, not I

family outing

2005-06-01T16:53:00.000-07:00

yayz, finally had our family outing ytd, but too bad ah pa cant be with us.... our lunch was just so filling!! yay!! got to eat xiao long bao again, yummy!!! n i just love the mango dessert!! chao zan! and finally got to shop for clothes since stagnant for dunno how long.. got some prob of not knowing wat to buy at first haha, too long nv shop liao, getting rusty. haha, but still not bad, i still finished shopping within my usual speed n time limit. gor seemed sian diao, haha...oops... the ktv session was fun though... sang those ao piao songs that we usually dun sing. ahhh.... my voice was super weak ytd....

the dance we learnt today is nice... but the catch is, it is so DIFFICULT n TIRING!!!!!!!! oh man.... was like panting like mad le.... n it seemed like im the slowest learner among all.. :( think kay also heck care me liao... so lousy n slow..... hmm... continued with shopping today n spent all my money liao.. no more money to eat lunch, luckily niang was there to save me..

what dreams are made of

2005-06-01T16:40:00.000-07:00

---Have you ever seen such a beautiful night
I could almost kiss the stars for shining so bright
When i see you smile and i go oh oh oh
I would never want to miss this
In my heart, I know what this is
This is what dreams are made of
This is what dreams are made of
I've got Somewhere i belong
I've gotSomebody to love
This what dreams are made of ---

the tide is high

2005-05-28T22:23:00.000-07:00

yes, i feel much alive
i feel clean
i feel high
i feel bouncy
i feel that the tide is high!!
geez.. i hav new plans,new goals, new aims, new perspective, a brand new life!! :)
yayz, got lots of plan for this hols n i aim to fulfil most of them!!
first of all: I WILL FINISH MY TUTORIALS
secondly: I WILL PIA FOR MY BLOCK TEST
then the rest is for my enjoyment n char development haha.
yes, my shopping plan. gotta review my fashion n renew my cupboard. mayb get a haircut too.

shopping list--
no. 1: lizzie mcguire movie ost
the rest will be clothes.. skirt mayb n more blouses.... :D

wish list--
elder bro: but i got one already haha
elder sis: yes, now i want an elder sis too. niang go find one for me. to hav a sis to go shopping together n blah blah...

yes the tide is high!!!

everytime

2005-05-28T00:25:00.000-07:00

"Everytime"
Notice me
Take my hand
Why are weStrangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so smallI guess
I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only wayI see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so smallI guess
I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

why

2005-05-27T21:54:00.000-07:00

i dunno why im feeling tis way...... mayb im just tired.... or mayb im having one of my moodswings..... the tap cant stop flowing.... i can sense a silent storm raging....
helpless... i hate fallin into the valley again... i knew long ago tis wuld be my ending... and yet i let myself plunge into this valley....

the turning point of darkness is light, the turn of hatred is happiness, but i cant turn my feelings to make myself feel better..

Sianz...

2005-05-27T20:41:00.000-07:00

three days of eep week just gone liddat... i learnt nth, i did nth, i experienced nth... all wasted... im just like a log rotting at home... these 3 days just seem so long to pass.... cooped up at home all day long, did nth but slp n eat n slp n eat.... medicine made me feel drowsy all day n onli slping can help me pass time...
feel like a loser.... everyone must be enjoying themselves at the camp n all become "qualified leaders" and yet i experienced nth at all.... can onli try to imagine wat is going on at the camp.....cant even strike lottery la, yet can get rashes on the day of camp.... wat crap..... ahhhhhhargah..... @#%#&*@#@....
but at least tried to finish writing an autograph book today.... brought back lots of memories though.... really wish to meet up with my sec sch frens again n hav fun... a slpover might be fun!! or another ktv session ba... as long as i can get out of this hse n get some fresh air... SIANZZZZZZZZZ.............
ahhhh.... mayb i shuld fold more lucky stars in future like wat my mum says.... think im really down on luck.... need to go offer more incense or sth to the gods.....

exhausted

2005-05-19T23:23:00.000-07:00

exhausted.... fatigue... tired.... sleepy.... sian... moody... frustrated...

i just need a rest.... not a deserved rest though.... din even work hard enough for studies... dunno y my energy level had become so low and endurance had become so lousy.... right now im just looking forward to the fun coming up... i feel guilty though... for playing and not working... feel like scolding myself....

went back to scgs today, finally..... hav not went back for ages le.... the sch seems just as familiar to us, as if we had just went there yesterday... felt a warm and cosy feeling... just like my second home... the whole compound is just filled with precious memories of yesterday.... saw some teachers and i was very excited... but sad that i hav not seen all the teachers yet....
being in the sch is just like being in our own little world... there is where we grew, there is where we are nurtured to be women of character and relevance... with the mission of sincerity, courage, generosity and service... staying in there makes u feel protected from the struggles and complications of the outside world....
sad... that we hav to grow up and move on, had to move out of this comfort world and venture into the outside world.. i had began to see the struggles that i had to face in front of me...

Settling

2005-05-15T13:35:00.000-07:00

Carrying my backpack, i'm walking down this path, alone. Prepared to walk the distance, I'm in search of a place where i really belong to, somewhere down this road....

Somewhere down this road
i know someone's waiting.
Tears of dreams just cant be wrong!
Arms will open wide
I'll be safe and wanted
Finally home where i belong.
Well starting now, im learning fast
on this journey - - to the past

Found a place, a spot where i truly love. I unpacked my backpack and prepare to settle down. Someone came along.... No... it is just too crowded.... both of us cant share this spot.... Someone has to leave...

Am i real? Am i a dream?
Am i borrowed? Am i blue?
Is it just the dust of leaving you
settling?

Am i fair? Am i strong?
Am i there? Do i belong?
Is it only skin i touch
When i reach for you?

Oh, the leaves they fall,
they go so far sometimes.
Do i blame the wind
or the tree for letting you go?
Or do i wave goodbye,
settling?

Do i stay? Do i fight?
Is it wrong and nothing's right?
Or is it just the closet light
I've offered you?

So many times i needed
you to be strong to me.
But you bend beneath
the slightest breeze
you have no leaves,
no leaves, no leaves...

Settling
Am i fair? Am i strong?
Do i stay? Do i fight?
Is it just the closet light?
Is it only skin i touch,
or is it just the dust.
Settling?

Body lang 05

2005-05-14T00:25:00.000-07:00

yay, finally, the horrible week is over.... how terrible n torturing it was, it just seemed like the longest n toughest wk i had gone thru... lack of slp, muscle ache, fatigue, bla bla.... ya, still feeling very high now even though im physically tired.... today's body lang was quite a success lah.. n the CUCUMBERS won!!!! we r the champions!! we r the champions!! so happy!!! though during backstage it was like a total mess n everyone is in a frantic.... i really insist tt the j1s shuld go for performance image management... cant makeup n do their hair.. :S i was like freaking out at backstage while waiting to perform cucumbers dance.. n i was trembling on stage too.. but managed to finish the dance without really screwing ti up, yayz!! the audience was really assuring... during a chaos part the audience was like very high n ppl cheered along... i was really touched at tt!! ppl also shouted along "breathe in, breathe out, guys say hoo, gals say ahhh" glad tt ppl enjoyed the dance!! yayz!! I feel gd, na na na na na na na.....later it was the j1s dance. almost everyone cooperated n it was a success too!! at least it was better than usual prac..

was super high after the concert.. i was really happy to see all my frens!!!!!! n first time performing n first time receieving flowers!!! really feel appreciated to hav all these frens come down n support.
to sara n shengqi: just wanna say thank u to the both of u to hav come down n support us n body lang. knowing tt u two r there watching, it makes me feel more confident to perform n nice dance for u to watch.
to zichun n desmond n yong liang: thanks for coming n down n support us too!! thank you!! :)
to gor: thank u for cheering me on when i lost confidence of my performance..

yay!! finally get to tok to kangeroo today hahah.... his reaction is so cute!!!n he made niang jealous too hahaha.... so farnie!!!

At a lost!!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-06T09:40:00.000-07:00

Suddenly there is just so much to do!! when can i ever finish my tutorials??? why cant i understand a thing?? oh man, we hav not even decide on our costumes n the performance is just next fri!!!! the ending part is still screwed.. wat shuld we do???? n i still got another dance to manage.. tmr is track n field meet, dun feel like going, really dun feel like... i just wanna stay at home n sleep.... or mug... sigh...or shuld we prac our dance tmr??? or go shop for costumes??? wat shuld i do?? i dun even noe wat i shuld do first....im scared... really scared for next week... seems like i wont hav enuff time next wk to prepare for SPA n lec test... i dun noe if i will pass... wat if i dun even noe how to do a thing at all????

Tutorials, tutorials....

2005-04-24T22:49:00.000-07:00

sigh... dunno if i can ever catch up for my tutorials... sigh...... n yet i also hav to attend so many outside classes. oh yea, ytd was such an exhausting day. went thru body lang auditions. din screw it up at least... hope that we had left a gd impression for the judges although they seem so 'leng'.... but nonetheless, we were still excited n happy after the auditions!! taking all sorts of funny n lame photos together..... cant imagine after dance auditions i still hav to rush back home n rush for my jap class again. only got to take a super short nap of 10min.... argh..... still rmb i was on the mrt studying jap n i almost fainted... super tired, n yet no seats for me....... went to my jap class, n there was really a class test!! luckily it was still manageable, cos i din even prepare for it. copied the examples thru out the whole paper.

hm... today i sang n sang, trying to hit high notes till i teared... sniff, sniff, so hard to hit high notes.... n my teacher tot i was crying.... dunno y though, mayb it was becos of the song, or mayb just becos i was putting too much stress on myself. but now i finally got the feeling of singing high notes without squeezing my throat. at least my throat does not hurt now..... right, i shall prac everyday!!!!

I feel good!!!!

2005-04-22T23:20:00.000-07:00

i guess i feel better now.... now as much being affected by the matter... mayb not fully recovered, but at least, im not as depressed... mayb sometimes by keeping urself occupied with work does help u to temporary forget ur troubles... but most important of all, i had realised that friendship is really more important as well as worth cherished than anything else. really touched at the concern n encouragement given by my fellow friends... friends from my sec sch, as well as from the frens in HC...a big thank you to all those out there who had showed me concern during the times when i was feeling down...i would not hav pulled thru the hard times if u all were not there for me.... thank you!!!

anyways, happy today!! (though at the same time, im exhausted!! tired!!! whole body aching!!!!) but we finally finish our dance n quite although not completely ready for auditions tmr.. but after weeks of hard work n effort, i really really wish that we can get thru the auditions... even spent nights of taking cab home n also climbing the sch gate haha...... we better get thru!!!!!! n i better not screw it up tmr!!!!! oh man, very nervous n scared now!!!
whether we get thru or not, i still think these wks when we spent afternoons n afternoons choreographing n practising, the most important thing is still the bonds we hav made as well as the fun n laughter we had experienced. i had truly enjoyed myself for these past wks though im really dying of fatigue now.... argh.....

think i getting sore throat soon....... :( argh.... my throat feels wierd, feels bad...

Danceworks night

2005-04-16T23:54:00.000-07:00

today went to watch danceworks!!! super excited!!!!!! i had been waiting for this day!!! Previously i had promise myself sth, but in just one day's time, i broke my own promise. Excitement took full control of me n i could not control myself!!! saw niang on stage n i was super excited!!! I screamed n cheered madly, didnt care at all... i hav always love to watch him dance, yay!!! but today, he didnt seem like his usual self. normally he always seem so confident n cheerful during performance, but today, he didnt smile much, n kept looking down. mayb he was stressed or sth...sigh... the gals improved though, all smiled n seemed quite energetic... kangeroo made a mistake too at the end, so sad..... anyways, i was still super high to be able to see them dance, n stupid me, mayb i was just too excited or high or sth that i waved to niang!! oh no, bet he saw me n i ma lued myself totally!!!! right, i shall keep it down from today onwards.... but tonight, let me be crazy for once haha!!!!

Sunshine after the rain

2005-04-15T20:45:00.000-07:00

There will always be sunshine after the rain. After a pour, there wont be anymore rain. a rainbow may appear, n the sun will be out. i hav made my decision. i hav sort out my thoughts. i noe what to do.

~Zhong Jian~

~Leng~

XXGreenXX

::Bye Bye::

Depressing Day

2005-04-15T20:41:00.000-07:00

now i believe in how the weather can affect one's emotions. the sky turned grey, together with dark clouds, it marked the beginning of a depressing day. hav no mood at all... felt wierd... felt empty inside....

Dao me.... mayb that was my retribution for daoing ppl in the first place...

Raise voice at me.... that was the first time u do this to me...

~tot i was being kind, heard u mourning so that's y feel sorry for u, n yet u treat me this way~

mayb the msg was right, if one sigh about one's problems, the problem would just double... never expected such double shock... enough of depression for one day.. i cant take it anymore

yes, i can see the history repeating itself. im scared right from the beginning, scared that it will turn out this way. n it really did. my fears were right. but she is right, i would rather hav the troubles on myself then to hav it on others.

the rain got heavier as my heart sank even deeper... nothing really helped, not even the m & m's chocolate.

remember the crying game i played with germaine. at times when u purposely want to cry, the tears just wont come. but when u dun want to, it just comes uncontrollably...

Not to cry

2005-04-15T20:28:00.000-07:00

5 ways to stop yourself from crying:

1. whenever u feel like crying, do handstands, in this way, the tears will not flow out ~~~ Hua ze lei

2. Go watch HCI waterpolo match n shout or cheer with all ur might, let it all out

3. Listen to Fish Leong's song: Zhong Jian ~~~ any strong emotions will be neutralized

4. Sing out loud: sing all the high notes n let it all out.

5. Eat lots of chocolate ~~~ chocolate makes ppl feel happy

if none works, just cry then. after drying your tears, u wont feel like crying anymore